My biological father Spike [William, actually] is pretty much dying. I don't really know what to do. His brother is going to call me at some point today so I can make my flight arrangements to be with him, but jesus fucking christ, this waiting around/doing nothing/going crazy is fucking horrible. I just want to be there with him.

Anyway, there's a really slight chance that he might make it, so that's what I'm clinging to. Fucking god damned shit. Fuck