I haven't cried since it happened yet. I did a bit earlier today after I visited her and saw how she was. When I visited her in hospital last week she was her usual chirpy self, making smart comments and smirking to herself, and then the day before yesterday she was finding it a bit difficult to talk, and today she could barely manage to wheeze anything out. It was liver cancer. She tried to say something about three times and couldn't get halfway through the sentence. I still don't know what the...