I know this. I don't really feel like changing it either, but it gets tiring. I lie in bed all day playing games or watching Sons of Anarchy, and drinking energy drinks, of my own volition, of course.
I'm not happy with who I am, and I'm not even sure I know who I am, but I know that if I'm not miserable them I'm not myself, or at least I feel that way. It's quite pathetic that my entire personality had become bitterness and depression. The worst part is I don't even care, I don't even care...