I need help to deal with my day to day life. I'm completely crippled by anxiety at this point. I don't want to do my uni course any more. I can't talk to anyone about any of this. I want to. I can see how bad I'm letting everything get. And I just can't ask for help. I can't stop smiling and pretending that everything is ok. Sometimes I feel like I'm being crushed inside. Like I can't breathe. Like this huge weight is on top of me.

I know what the problem is. I know what to do about...