yes, I've just heard that too from my mom. Well, I must say that I'm a believing person, I mean- I believe that >something<, not exacly >someone<, exists and is watching over us. I don't believe that this existenceis 100% pure and good, but I believe anyway. It is comfortable for me to think that when I'm talking (not praying), someone is listening (maybe not interested in what I'm saying and does nothing with it, but is listening anyway). And I like to think that there is something after the death of our body- not a place like 'heaven', but a state of our soul/ghost/whatever....kinda hard to explain. But to make a long story short- I don't believe in church, though I believe in >god< If you like to call it that.
But yet- I felt bad after I've heard about pope's death. He was a good man and I respected him just for that. He never said that we, humans, are only worthless ashes, comparing to the god's grace, and we have to spend our whole life on our knees praying to him to forgive us our sins and kill/abuse any other religion (like priests enjoy to remind us to do at every step). No. Instead he was able to talk with young people, and trying to prove them that every human is worthy to live on this world as long as we will be good for eachother. I don't like most of the priests and I'm not a regular guest in church...but I still respected pope.
But when I think more and more about it- I feel relief. He was very old (and survived a terrible 'accident', that was a miracle already), and seeing him in a condition that he was for a few years was making me feel uncomfortable and very sorry for him (not even understanding what he was saying sometimes). I just wanted for him to retire (I'm surprised that he didn't) and for everybody (believers) to give him a break. Sure- he was a pope, but above all that- he was a human. Now all the pain for him is over, and maybe his soul reached the state, that church calls 'heaven'? I sure hope so.
I just wish that his death wasn't so painful. He suffered enough in his life.
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