Anyone Suicidal or Homocidal?

Jacob · #1 04-24-2002, 08:48 PM

I was just wondering if anyone on here was suicidal or homocidal? Or if your depressed or stressed about something. I, for one, get very stressed, depressed, suicidal and homocidal. So if you have any pent up feelings you wanna let loose, feel free to do it now. I will accept swearing, however i dont know if the admins will.

Halo man · #2 04-24-2002, 09:14 PM

If we were suicidal, we wouldn't be posting so you might wanna edit

HALO ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Majic · #3 04-24-2002, 09:34 PM

Dude, thats not ture, if your suicidal that means you think about it and attempt it. It doesn't mean you've killed yourself or something. You have a stupid misconception... And Halo rocks, um, yes it does, nice to see you uh, expressing your inmost feelings

Roy · #4 04-24-2002, 09:38 PM

i think you're posting just to get stars ! yeesh!

Majic · #5 04-24-2002, 09:53 PM

Which one of us: Chris, myself, or the screwy little Halo addict?

VykerSawBones · #6 04-24-2002, 10:26 PM

Um..im a Halo addict i finished the game.... i dont get this topic

Majic · #7 04-24-2002, 10:56 PM

He jsut wats to know if other people get stressed out easily, basicly have pent up anger they don't release (and they release it in the form of huritng htemself or others) and if we basicly get freaked out and hate life, please correct me if I'm wrong.... Read between the lines

Disgruntled Intern · #8 04-24-2002, 11:26 PM

um...huh.
Well, since I'm on academic probation, and can't afford to screw up at school, I often fantasise about killing fellow students in odd ways...although it stops there. always a fantasy, never a reality.

Majic · #9 04-24-2002, 11:59 PM

Hm, might as well answer the question anyways... I usualy am short-tempered, which isn't always great. But I hold back on the vauge fear of suspension beacuse I know my parents would prevent me from anything relating to the outside world for who knows how long. One time when I was mad though, I got out a large 2 inch in diameter wooden rod from my closet I'm suppose to hang clothes on. I severely beat one of my old binders with it. Then I got a pair of scissors and slashed up the cover... Works quite well. And lets see, I usualy hold back whenever I'm angry and feel like beating up the annoying kids who make fun of me and stuff. And that hurts to, but its better than being grounded...

Disgruntled Intern · #10 04-25-2002, 01:36 PM

Majic, you heartless monster!
beating up an innocent binder like that....you should be ashamed.

Jacob · #11 04-25-2002, 05:25 PM

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If we were suicidal, we wouldn't be posting so you might wanna edit

How about you edit little boy.

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i think you're posting just to get stars ! yeesh!

Dont start...i could seriously damage you emotionally.

And i posted this yesterday cos it was such a shit day for me...i plotted running away and suicide and homocide and stuff. Cant be bothered to post...

Fazerina · #12 04-25-2002, 05:44 PM

I can become depressed quite easily. Some times I've got these periods, when I'm just sad the whole time and don't even know why. I just hate my life and wallow in my own misery...

I don't get these moods so often any more...

When I was in Secondary school, my best friend "left" me and I was suddenly all alone. There were only five girls on my class and my ex-best friend became buddies with one of the other girls and the others were... well geeks. I became friends with them, though, and then... I could say my whole life and my way of thinking changed... But I'd say that was a good thing. I was such a naive girl back then...

Anyway, I was suicidal after that. I didn't really try to kill myself, but I was planning it. And I was listening to this song the whole time, which is about a girl who killed herself. The lyrics go like this: "You were a butterfly, whose wings didn't carry far. You got tired in the bathroom..." I'm glad I got over it, but I was depressed for months.

Now I'm not really depressed about anything. I'm just a bit sad for my current best friend being away. She's in France as an exchange student. But she'll be back on June, I think.

Well, stressed...yeah! Stupid college! I've got nine more tests before summer vacation and they wont probably go very well, if I wont start studying...

Gluk Schmuck · #13 04-25-2002, 06:06 PM

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Originally posted by Fazerina
Anyway, I was suicidal after that. I didn't really try to kill myself, but I was planning it.

It's hard thinking of a way to kill yourself without hurting yourself, isn't it. That and friends are the main reasons I didn't kill myself ages ago, when I was depressed and suicidal.

Jacob · #14 04-25-2002, 06:13 PM

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It's hard thinking of a way to kill yourself without hurting yourself, isn't it. That and friends are the main reasons I didn't kill myself ages ago, when I was depressed and suicidal.

Very hard to think of a way without pain. I have come up with Over Dosing and Carbon Monoxide poisoning (Or whatever the fumes from the Exhaust of a car are called) cos thats supposed to be like going to sleep.

Danny · #15 04-25-2002, 06:43 PM

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Originally posted by Disgruntled Intern
Well, since I'm on academic probation, and can't afford to screw up at school, I often fantasise about killing fellow students in odd ways...although it stops there. always a fantasy, never a reality.

What's Academic Probation, and why are you on it?

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Originally posted by Jacob
And i posted this yesterday cos it was such a shit day for me...i plotted running away and suicide and homocide and stuff.

What happened?

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Originally posted by Jacob
I have come up with Over Dosing and Carbon Monoxide poisoning (Or whatever the fumes from the Exhaust of a car are called) cos thats supposed to be like going to sleep.

CO poisoning is meant to be fairly painless, yeah, but Overdosing is generally extremely painful, although it depends on what you overdose on... Painkillers, for example, gives you incredibly acute stomach cramps when taken in excess; We've all seen the effects of Ecstasy and Heroin overdose; I don't know about Amphetamines, Ketamines or Poppers. Those are about all the drugs I can think of offhand that can be ODed on.

I have been depressed in the past, although not recently, and never severely. I have deliberately hurt myself a few times, but that was as much out of boredom as out of depression, to tell the truth... I know several people who list "Self-Harm" as one of their hobbies...

As for Homicide, well, haven't we all?

Statikk HDM · #16 04-25-2002, 06:56 PM

Why is this topic here? Pretty ****ing weird. Go wghine about your pseudo depression elsewhere

Danny · #17 04-25-2002, 07:18 PM

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Originally posted by Statikk HDM
Why is this topic here? Pretty ****ing weird. Go wghine about your pseudo depression elsewhere

Could you be any less sensitive? I almost didn't hold this statement in contempt. Almost.

You and I may not have problems with depression, but some people do, and it's best for them to get them out in the open somewhere. They'd be here for you if you were depressed. Well, I wouldn't, but I'm sure the rest of the people in this thread would...

Jacob · #18 04-25-2002, 07:19 PM

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Pretty ****ing weird. Go wghine about your pseudo depression elsewhere

Stad, its better making a topic thats weird then being weird.

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What happened?

1) Got up late.
2) Had to run to catch the bus.
3) At break a lass had a go at me for 'Shit stirring'
4) At lunch i had to hang around with the most vulgerist girls and 2 lads.
5) Science we had a sub teacher.
6) He ripped up my word and my drawing of a Elf with a Axe who had jus' killed Santa Claus (It was a good fecking drawing as well!!)
7) Left skool early. And missed my bus.
8) Had to wait for another bus, sat on a bench and sat in some sticky stuff.
9) Nearly missed my 2nd bus, had to run, fell and grazed my leg.
10) Got off bus, practicly straight afterwards i got stung by a Wasp.
11) Went limping and hurting to the doors of the flats, dialled the number, doors opened and closed before i got inside...i walked into the doors.
12) I got in the lift, the doors wouldn't close.
13) I went to the 2nd lift, got into that one and i got stuck in it for 10 mins in HOT weather!!
14) Went to sleep, woke up, missed my fave progs.
15) Decided to go out, went in the same lift...got stuck in it for 2 hours...VERY HOT!!
16) Realised i didn't know what sexuality i was.
17) Realised my best mate is gorgeous and he is straight and its not fair cos i wont stand a chance with him and it hurts me when i see him with anyone else and i get jealous.

I cried that day...i cried a river of tears and thought about Suicide, Homocide and Running away.

Majic · #19 04-26-2002, 12:39 AM

Um, don't worry, today I got a piece of pencil lead stuck in my knee from where someone stabbed me. And I have a pain on my butt, a mechanical pencil in my pocket ripped up a small piece of flesh. I missed my bus stop after school and had to walk home 1 1/2 miles which stunk. And I used to be depressed because I basicly had no friends, they all moved, but now it feels good to be happy for no reason. And many people, including myself plan suicide, but the only easy way for sure I could use would be to slash my wrists, I tried pressing the blade once but it left little red lines for 3 days, I wore long sleeves which stunk, it was mild weather... But think of all we have to live for. Erm, terrorizing little 10 year olds who think there all that, um watching TV, um, um, eating? And um, um, seeing little color patterns when we close our eyes...

CitizenKane · #20 04-26-2002, 03:19 AM

None of you know disaster. Today, early in the morning, I spat out my gum onto the sidewalk, musing to my friend Nick, "Look, I just ruined someone's day." He laughed. Later, in the PM, this time, I stepped on that mess of gum, and had to spend thirty minutes at home with a letter-opener trying to pry it off. Isn't it Ironic? Don't you think?

Disgruntled Intern · #21 04-26-2002, 01:25 PM

Kane...haha that's happened to me many a time. Sucks, doesn't it?

Danny, at my school, when you get in trouble, you get a "referral"
you can be reffered to a school counselor [for petty offenses] sent to any one of the 4 principals we have [usually for vulagirty, and fighting] or sent before the administration board. [when that happens, you're in DEEP shit.] anyway, once sent to any of those people, they assign you a punishment, varying from detention, to saturday school, suspension, and being expelled. I have been in 6 fights this year, but managed to get myself on academic probation rather than being expelled. Academin probation basically works like this:

1- you MUST maintain ATLEAST a C+ average [I have a B+ average, so no worries there

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2- Your teachers fill out monthly-bi monthly reports on your behavior and progress.

3- If you get ONE referral, you're sent to E.F.J. highschool, which os basically a school for the bad kids. I've had a brief stay there, and don't plan on going back. scary place, that EFJ.

and those are the rules of academic probation. It's basically like being on probation..which I'm also on...I have to make scheduled visits to my Probation Officer every now and then to talk. I am also. required to see a therapist until I am 18 years of age. So basically, I f*cked up big time a few years ago, and went to boot camp, and then put on probation by the police. Get to high school, and stand up for myself, and get put on academic probation. Kinda limits my fun these days.

Fazerina · #22 04-26-2002, 02:49 PM

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Originally posted by Danny
I know several people who list "Self-Harm" as one of their hobbies...

Many of my friends cut themselves. I have never tried it myself and I find the idea...just impossible for me. I couldn't hurt myself like that. I know that, because I was standing there so many times with razor blade on my hand...

Two of my friends are always proudly showing their newest cuts... "Look! This is so cool. It's exactly like the one David cut on his arm on their gig..."

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Originally posted by CitizenKane
Isn't it Ironic? Don't you think?

Yeah.

Btw... good song! *starts singing*

Jacob · #23 04-26-2002, 05:03 PM

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I couldn't hurt myself like that. I know that, because I was standing there so many times with razor blade on my hand...

I once got a really crap grade once and i went into suicidal-depression. My family just said it was a phase and that i should get over it. Personally i want a therapist, i have loads of issues and probs that i cant tell my family about or my friends. But everytime i mention it to my family they just tell me to stop being daft and only 'People who really need it go, like druggies etc' and im like 'Hello...i need it...i aint a druggie' Ugh...i hate my family.

Gluk Schmuck · #24 04-26-2002, 06:37 PM

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Originally posted by Fazerina
Many of my friends cut themselves.

Two of my friends are always proudly showing their newest cuts... "Look! This is so cool. It's exactly like the one David cut on his arm on their gig..."

Cutting yourself because of depression is a perfectly sane thing to do compared to cutting yourself because a pop star does it.

CitizenKane · #25 04-26-2002, 06:47 PM

I've only met one person who cuts themselves in my lifetime, and I have to play the violin with her. She's terrible; all she rants about is how much she hates her life and how many people she had sex with over the weekend. It's a pinch dinconcerting, to say the least.

I like being decisive, myself; if I want to kill myself, I'll kill myself. If If I want to kill someone, I'll kill someone. The only time I ever cut myself was when slicing the skin off an onion.

Jacob · #26 04-26-2002, 07:10 PM

I would kill someone, but it would be so humiliating to be caught and have people know it was you. I am the type to go for the 'Middle of the night' attack or poison attack. Simpler and more satisfying.

CitizenKane · #27 04-26-2002, 07:24 PM

And, remember kids, guns are for sissies. Use a good chain, cane, or a short, stumpy razor blade (so they feel it)!
PS
The best way to dispose of a body is to eat it.

Fazerina · #28 04-26-2002, 07:37 PM

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Originally posted by Gluk Schmuck
Cutting yourself because of depression is a perfectly sane thing to do compared to cutting yourself because a pop star does it.

The friend, whom I was quoting, is an alcoholic and she uses drugs. She has been diagnosed to have panic disorder and schizophrenia. She takes various pills daily and goes nuts without them. She can also be violent, if she hasn't taken her pills. Some unlucky persons have noticed that, if they have had a go at her on a bad morning... And she just ran away from a mental institution for a few months ago, but she was put there for no good reason!

I know she's got issues, but when you know her she's a really nice person!

CitizenKane · #29 04-26-2002, 07:41 PM

Put her out of her extasy.

Gluk Schmuck · #30 04-26-2002, 07:52 PM

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Originally posted by Fazerina
The friend, whom I was quoting, is an alcoholic and she uses drugs. She has been diagnosed to have panic disorder and schizophrenia. She takes various pills daily and goes nuts without them. She can also be violent, if she hasn't taken her pills. Some unlucky persons have noticed that, if they have had a go at her on a bad morning... And she just ran away from a mental institution for a few months ago, but she was put there for no good reason!

I know she's got issues, but when you know her she's a really nice person!

I'm glad she didn't do it for popularity, like I assumed.