GT, you disgust me. You dedicate a topic to yourself, which although annoying, is generally accepted. But to top it off, the topic revolves around your supposed personal/emotional problems, and how you put on 'a happy face' for everyone, but you really cry all the time. Disgusting. I have a feeling you're a very insecure person, and this was your way of getting a bit of an ego boost...News flash, if you're seeking comfort in the fact that online 'friends' care about you, then you definitely need to leave the forums and experience the real world.
Long story short, go away.
