Je suis tres...confused.

Not really anymore ... but I went through a lot of depression just over a year ago, and several months before then. It was caused because of many months of problems with my ex-BF and also after we broke up. I would cry for long times and always feel really down. At times I did have thoughts of ending my life, but I was always scared to go through with anything like that [just as well]. It's not something I want to go through again. Everything just seems so bleak and you feel like you can't go on. You have no motivation and don't feel like doing anything at all. You almost have to force yourself to do what you need to do.

I eventually got out of it. You may laugh, but my [then] refound obsession with Sephiroth helped get me out of it. It helped me focus my thoughts elsewhere and begin to live my life again. My family also helped a lot too. I began to realize that I was better off without him, and began to realize that even when we were together, my life wasn't how it should have been.

I still feel down at times ... I guess it's just remnants of the depression. But it's nothing like what I had experienced.

Abe Babe...

I totally hear you on that one Abe Babe. When I broke up with my girlfriend, I suddenly got obsessed with Shakira, and listening to her songs all the time (even the spanish ones) made me feel a whole lot better.

'I mean, I'm male... yeah.... I think so....'

You're male? O-M-G, to think, we bonded on an internet level. Well, now i feel violated *goes to bathe in the substances of cleanliness*

*gives Abe Babe a hug*

That is the total story of my sister's breakup...minus Sephi.:p Anyway, I know how hard it can be when that happens. My sister was engaged to this dude...then he just stopped talking to her without reason. He even blocked our phone number so she couldn't call him. Eventually she found out that her boyfriend had left her to pursue a homosexual relationship. Needless to say, my sister was a wreck for a looong time after that.

-oddguy :fuzcool:

Gah, that really sucks, Oddguy.

Tell you sister Mac still loves her and isn't a homosexual.

I'll be sure to do that. ;) She's past it all now, but at the time there were a lot of tears. She went through this whole, "I must not be attractive" and "I turned him gay" stage. It was awful. I had to give a lot of brotherly pep-talks and big hugs to keep her from crying constantly.

-oddguy

I find that HIGHLY amusing. Do they stay in contact as friends?

Shut the hell up, Jacob. You remind me of one of those losers that drives by a carwreck and chuckles.

No...they aren't friends anymore. Duh.

-oddguy :fuzcool:

Hm, did you par chance put that into the wrong thread? I'll move it if you'd like...

Ah, crap, I did.

I am a complete moron.

Yeah, if you could move it to the Complaints/Confessions thread that'd be great.

Sorry 'bout that.

Actually, eek. I don't think I can move individual posts. And if I can, I'm too lazy to be bothered. Copy/paste it to the c/c thread, and delete your post here. Or else.

'You remind me of one of those losers that drives by a carwreck and chuckles.'

And you remind me of the person in the carwreck, offended if i chuckle at the fact both of your legs are laying metres apart on the road, bathing in their own crimson water.

'No...they aren't friends anymore. Duh.'

"Duh"? They could be friends, i'm still friends with this guy who was once straight but is now a complete and utter Faggasexual.

Maybe I'm gay ;)

Done and done.

And done.

Self-mutilation and suicide ideas are 2 enormous red flags, Lindsay. You serious help. Killing yourself isn't going to do shit, you should deal with your problems because they aren't worth killing yourself over. I've been there(though not to the point of being suicidal) because I'm manic depressive and APD runs in my family.

Good boy. You just proved my point for me. :)

I can honestly say that I've never thought of killing myself, but I have been seriously depressed. And it's not fun.
But I have two reasons for not wanting to do myself in.
1. I have a career in art waiting for me. I don't want to dump it down the toilet.
2. I love life. ANd I'm also extremely afraid of death (I've said that before) and I'd be too afraid to even think about it.

Life has too much to teach us for us to cut it short.

Also, if I may, I'd like to add...masochism. What a bad idea it is.
-The circulatory system, fragile and complicated as it already is, doesn't need anything to screw it up more.
-Blood might be fun to draw (sketch I mean), but the line ends there. I hate seeing blood.

'You just proved my point for me.'

No, you just proved my point for me..hehe, oh yeh, i rrrrrrrock.

Oh and Dipstikk - masochism isn't just about drawing blood, i just like the pain aspect.

And on that note, has anybody seen 'Session 9' or 'Identity' these two films actually rocked my socks...

What the fudge is macochism?

The loving of pain. Sadism is the loving of inflicting pain. I have both fetishs. But only minimumness of them.

So in Little Shop Of Horrors; Bill Murray is the masochist, and that crazy-ass dentist is the sadist, right?

Lol yeh, i want that film so much, wow, i forgot all about Bill Murray and the Dentist, that parts ace.

Curiousity strikes!
What if you are sincerely depressed, medication isn't helping, and your relationship--or lack therof--sucks? What would someone suggest to that?

AaAAAArrrgh! you guys no!

Just no!

I... its... you're... I'm *CB is speechless!*

Look... stuff is always bad at the time, at that very moment but never ever ever ever act upon the initial feelings or impulses...

I can't think of anything else to post other than...

Ferill... if the lady poster who started this thread is the Lindsay you're comparing me to in my long goodbye then hang your head in shame...

...You know what I mean!!!!

CB xx

And Dave.... you're situation just sounds like life sweetie! There's not alot you can do other than live it really... but live it! Don't throw it all away!