I...I c-...cried.

I'm confused too.

And it wasn't one of those PMS emotional things either. It was weird and unlike me.

It sounded like a cranky, beaten, un-fed baby. Because nobody will let me sleep anymore. and I haven't showered in like, a week.

I finally get the chance to get more than 3 hours, and I find out I have a birthday party to go to. It wasn't all that great. We went roller skating, and I fell on my ass 3 times. I think I broke it. After working really late trying to get my school stuff together. And tomorrow I have to wake up really early for a meeting at my grandma's church, and they all expect me to be there. and After that I have to work on a commision that's due monday.

First goes privacy, then goes the ability to choose what I eat and whether or not I've had enough, and now I'm sleeping on everyone else's terms. Why can't I go back to being a young adult? Because my grandma is too close minded to respect the fact that she may be an elder, but she still doesn't have any power over me. The only thing that's keeping me back is that she was having panic attacks, and now she's threatening to have one if I don't start acting like a kid and obey every command.

I'm fucking sick of this. But I hate having her refer to me as another one of my aunt. And I don't like the way she tattles to my dad about every little thing. I hate having to be submissive all the time, but I don't want to be responsible for the death of a family member due to stress. *sigh* I wish the reincarnation wheel would have landed on a huggytime bear or something...