Oddfan...
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my parents fight all the time I used to get beat untill now I can fight back since i'm not just a 10 year old, I never get any good attention from them sometimes they get drunk,
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First and formost.. you're parents/care givers' behaviours is NOTHING to do personally with you or your behaviour. Never blame yourself for their actions.. they are people and adults their decisions are their own. Their behaviour may be wrong and hurtful.. its excellent that you have recognised this fact. If things get too bad their are options for seeking help... not only for you but also for your parents... they need help to stop them behaving in this way just as you need help to get through their behaviour.
My dad also drinks / drank... if you wanna pm me... I'm here Mon-Friday 8-5 British time!
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I have an eye disease called rp which means my eye vision is slowly dying and I'm already starting to lose it and by the time I'm 30 I'll be legally blind,
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This is really hard... unsure what to say other than to try to make the most of the time you have left with sight. Being partially sighted / blind in the modern age is not as deabilitating as it once was. I went to uni with a blind and also a profoundly deaf student... both girls were studying for a degree, went to the bars and were really well adjusted people.
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I'm always made fun of cause of my height I'm really short only 5' 1 and 1/2 I never had any friends I would just sit there alone at recess and cry when I was younger and all my siblings dislike me all they do is try to convinve my parents that I'm a failure but I guess I am, I'm failing out of high school I've already failed 3 classes, so I'm just stupid, the only ppl who I ever felt safe with my grandparents died from lung cancer they were smokers,
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Kids/teens can be cruel... I was bullied at school too. Differences whether positive or negative is the only cause for it. what I did is try to think of my differences as a positive thing.. like I was fat... but it meant I matured quicker than the other girls in my class so while they were still flatter than an ironing board in the chest dept I had a rather nice 34B cleavage! Don't let the b*stards get you down... then they've won... its easy to say but honestly this kind of experinces only make us stronger.
Your height... looking at your profile OF I can see you're 14... a boys greatest spurt in growth usually happens after this and blokes can keep on growing til they're 21! My ex was 5ft2 until he was 16.. I saw the photos.. his mum was taller than him! By the time he was 18 he had spurted an extra foot... and is now a not to be sniffed at 6ft1! There's plenty of time yet... don't worry about it just yet.
I am sure you're not stupid. I'm a qualified teacher and your sensitive post doesn't portray a stupid individual. It does show someone under great strain and stress and these factors can contribute to low accademic acheivement. I know it may be hard but try and talk to a teacher you trust or the school counsellor about your feelings.. then maybe your teachers will understand why you're not doing so well and perhaps help you emotionally and accademically. I know I would want to help you in any way I can.
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and I only have had 5 gfs my entire life and all of them I had at the age of 14 and all of them were fat and fugly, except for the one I have now the perfect girl for me and then no my life has to suck so her mom separates us, so I'm just alone in the world with no one to be with and no one to care about me, so my whole life is a sad story.
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Again OF... looking at you're profile you are 14. Although you sound very advanced and mature emotionally for your age your peers may not be. Although you may be ready for a girlfried and commitmant the girls you have feelings for may just still want to hang around the mall complaining about boys and how stupid they are not how much they fancy them. There is plenty of time for you to get a girlfriend... I didn't have my first boyfriend til I was 17!!! (Don't laugh!
) I now the presure o your medical condition must make you feel like you need to cram everything in right now but like I say a disability is no longer a disability in the modern age.
Hope this helps... didn't quite know what to say... if you want to talk further pm me... anytime... I will get back to you.
Remeber you're not alone.. you have all of us here.
Claire xxx