I live!
Sorry it's been so so long after I promised a timely update. All i can say in my defence is too much free time over the Easter holidays (seriously, the more time you have free the less you get done), difficulty in writing this chapter coupled with a growing interest in making it good and a growing interest in original fiction that i could actually get published and therefore paid for.
Just think whenever there's a long wait: it means I'm working closer to getting published and once I'm published I'll have to tell youall my real name so you can buy my novel, and that'll make you special.
Plus Nexy has not been ranting at me to write this, which is very unusual (and unnerving) for her.
So this chapter was probably written in about four or five parts over the last month, is about six pages long and says a fair bit about Dionysia. I'm not overly pleased with the first third so I might try editing in some time, but don't hold your breath anyone. It's an important part, basically explaining how she got to be the girl we know and love today.
Chapter 23
“I won’t take them!”
“You’ll do as you’re told!”
Dionysia shrieked a very rude word, and then another because the first had hurt her lip-stitches so much. Before Decrough could say anything more she stormed out of the lab. A few seconds later Krik appeared at the door. “Sounds like you two are getting along well,” He said cheerfully.
Decrough muttered a word even ruder than Dionysia’s.
“What’s the problem?”
“She’s refusing to take the hormone-booster shots again.”
“Let me talk to her,” Said Krik reasonably.
Decrough laughed dryly, “I doubt even your magic hold over her will bring her round on this. At this rate we’ll be putting her to sleep every time we need to inject her.”
Krik smiled sinisterly, “Let me try at least. I have a little trick I’ve been working on.”
Decrough made a disgruntled gesture, “Fine, fine, but don’t make her any angrier whatever you do.”
Krik gave him a conspiratorial nod and headed off to find Dionysia.
She had outgrown tears by now as far as any of them were aware, and he found her sitting on her bed, facing the wall and quietly fuming.
“Sounds like you and Decrough have been getting along well,” He said pleasantly.
She muttered a sliggish curse under her breath.
“What’s got the two of you speaking on such friendly terms?”
Begrudgingly she answered, “Those aging drugs.”
“Aging drugs?” He said, sounding innocent, “You mean the hormone boosters?”
“They make me age more quickly don’t they? I overheard you all talking; I’m not stupid!”
“Oh?”
She muttered a few more profanities of choice.
“Dionysia, do you think we’d give you a drug if it was going to do you harm?”
“It’ll age me! It’ll mean I…”
“Oh! You think if you take them you’ll die sooner?” She shuddered at the mention of death and he had to suppress a smirk in case she turned around quickly, “Well I can assure you it won’t. Old age leads to death because your body wears out. The drugs won’t age your body; they’ll just make you turn into an adult sooner. They’re very safe.”
She snorted, disbelieving.
“Dionysia, would I lie to you?”
She gave no reply. He walked across the room and was standing just beside her when she spoke. “I won’t take them.”
“Even if they’re harmless?”
There was a vehement silence.
“Fine,” Krik said at last, and she was so surprised that she turned to face him. Her lips were oozing blood where the stitches ran through them. He sat down beside her. “Those shots weren’t the only drugs we’re giving you are they?”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“I was just thinking about the chemical supplements we give you to keep you alive. I was wondering if you could tell the difference between those and the hormone-boosters.”
She shrugged and turned away, “The label’s different,” She muttered.
“Yes, but if we removed the label?”
She shrugged again.
“Well how’s this for a plan? Next time we give you the chemical supplements we’ll take the label off, and we’ll take the label off of the hormone boosters and leave that out as well and you can inject yourself.” Her back stiffened. With the faintest smirk he went on, “We’ll leave you both of them. You can have both, or if you’d prefer you can have just one of them, and if you’re lucky you might just pick the supplements. Of course you know that if you
didn’t take the supplements you’d probably be dead before your next injection was due.” He glanced in her direction. She looked horrified. He smiled flippantly.
“It wasn’t my idea of course,” He lied fluently, “Though I’ll admit it’s not a bad one. Then you can decide if you want to take the risk, how badly you don’t want to take the boosters.”
She looked thunder-struck. Her eyes begging, she whispered, “Please…” Still smiling, he stood up and left the room.
Directly outside the door he ran into the psychologist, Mehler. Krik gave him a pleasant smile.
Mehler stared at him grimly and then walked off. Krik was feeling too pleased with himself to be concerned.
Dionysia didn’t speak to Krik again that day, but he overheard her begging some of the other vykkers to let her off taking the shots. None of them, not ever Dachau, paid her much attention and to her horror she found that none of the vykkers would help her get off taking those abhorred drugs! She’d been so sure Krik would take her side, he’d help her; he always had before! And now he’d turned his back on her too! She felt as if she’d been thrown out like an unwanted sloggie. She couldn’t work out what she’d done to make him turn on her like this! Perhaps the worst thing was how Krik went on as if nothing had happened. She was at the brink of panic and he seemed completely oblivious. It was like she was standing in a room crowded with friends, screaming in agony and none of them looked her way.
As Krik had said, she was brought the two injections the next week and told to use them herself. Sobbing, she took them both. She hated it but she saw no other option. She was alone and helpless.
Even Mehler seemed to turn uncharacteristically frosty, though at least his malice didn’t seem to be directed at her.
In the end she did the only thing she could think to do. She ignored it, went on as if nothing had happened. She pushed down her panic, locked it away and swallowed the key. She still talked with Krik, laughed and jeered and pretended that there wasn’t a voice screaming deep down inside of her.
For over a year they made her keep taking the drugs. Every two weeks when the time to take them drew near she felt tat screaming inside of her grow in volume but she forced it down, pushed it aside, and on the day she injected herself with both syringes, calmly, blanking her body language as Mehler had taught her to do. No one would know what she felt.
On the outside she behaved normally, convincing the vykkers that she was happy and calm, and over time managed to convince herself of the same. In the mean time she was watching her body change at an alarming speed. She was growing taller, her body fleshing out in some places and thinning in others. Someone explained to her that a female worker-class mudokon usually took between eight and nine years to mature. Male sligs and mudokons would mature in under a year. By the time she was two she had reached the physical stage of a six-year old female mudokon. The hormone-boosters would make her finish growing more quickly. “You should grow into an adult a little after your third birthday,” One of the vykkers told her proudly; she felt her throat go dry and she could only nod dumbly, afraid that if she opened her mouth she might start screaming.
She felt her mind change too. She thought more clearly, saw the world differently. Her understanding of people changed and Mehler’s lessons became more complicated while she became more and more bored with every lesson. Her temper, dampened slightly by the vykkers long ago, grew back greater than ever. She was becoming impatient, irritable.
Her trust in Krik took a blow the day he failed to help her with the aging drugs, but restored itself before long: what else could she hold on to? After that one time he didn’t do anything else to really hurt her and he was still the nicest vykker, still understood her best, still protected her. She trusted him because she could trust in nothing else and over time she stopped thinking about how he had let her down and laughed with him as if nothing had happened.
After over a year they finally stopped making her take those horrible drugs. By then, however, their effect had already completed. The screaming voice inside of her didn’t fall silent, but it was buried so deeply that she hardly noticed it any more. Not taking the drugs made it easier to ignore.
Decrough announced to her one day shortly afterwards that it was time for her to go out of the lab and into a factory, the sort of place a finished black-skin would work. She protested a little out of habit but really she felt it would be a relief to leave that place; it would be like a fresh start.
A few weeks later she boarded a train with Mehler; they would be going to a nearby factory together. She was surprised to find that she was nervous, but then (much to her annoyance) Mehler insisted that they went over their lessons from the last three years; he went on about native mudokons and made her regurgitate the information about native accents and clothes, weaponry and mannerisms. She relayed information about drugs and first aid and he applauded her knowledge while she pretended not to care.
When they arrived at the factory she ignored the security sligs who met them at the station, and Mehler couldn’t help smirking. He realised that she had always seen sligs through a vykker’s eyes, and she didn’t think much of them. He would have to talk to the others; a successful black-skin would have to work with sligs, and thinking of them as a lower form of life wouldn’t help that. He wondered what was going to happen when they met the glukkon boss of this place and couldn’t help grinning; insulting glukkons was a common vykker pastime.
They were escorted to the boss’s office and ushered inside. “A pleasure to meet you, Director Styre,” Mehler drawled absently. I believe you were fully informed by my co-worker of the purpose of our time here.”
Styre nodded, glancing, slightly uncomfortably, towards Dionysia, who was standing on his expensive rug, slouching against an expensive portrait and examining his expensive office with a bored (and thoroughly unimpressed) look.
“Wonderful. We’ll try to give you as little trouble as possible, as long as you allow us to carry out our work interrupted.”
Styre nodded again, wincing slightly as Dionysia knocked the portrait askew. “Now listen, Doctor Melon,” He said quickly, earning a glare from the vykker, “Decrough told me that the mud is supposed to be used to combat terrorism,” (Dionysia hesitated before very carefully scuffing up a corner of the rug) “And I’d like to know what you expect to be doing here.”
Mehler’s voice was ever so slightly malignant as he replied, “Dionysia needs to become acclimatised to inhabiting a factory environment, and for this purpose we chose your establishment due to its proximity to our laboratory and relative safety.” Mehler knew as much about communication as Krik, and knew how to make someone feel uncomfortable. He was not in a good mood, “I trust you set aside suitable accommodation for Dionysia and myself, away from the other workers of course.”
“Won’t she be sleeping with the other muds?” Styre asked, surprised.
“Of course not! Surely Dr Decrough informed you that the experiment is still in such early stages?” Before Styre could question further he went on, “I also require access to your laboratory facilities this evening; I have a lot of work to do.”
Director Styre, realising he was in trouble, decided to move on quickly, “Of course; my sligs will escort you to your rooms.”
Mehler nodded, expecting the glukkon to get his name right on their next meeting, and led Dionysia out of the office.
Dionysia, he noted once they reached their accommodation, was smirking boldly. “Odd, are all glukkons that stupid?”
“I’m afraid not. Some of them are foolish but many are very clever; keep your wits about you around a vykker, until you’ve had the opportunity to judge them properly.”
Dionysia nodded, unconsciously absorbing his advice, much to his satisfaction. “Do you really need to use their lab tonight?”
“Not really, but you know you can always judge the quality of a facility by their scientific equipment.”
She snorted, “If you’re a vykker.”
“Naturally.” She sat on his bed in silence while he unpacked the equipment and filed the papers that he had brought with him. “I think we shall stay up here until the evening meal. Then we can go down and take a look at the workforce; let you have your first experience of mudokons and sligs in high quantities.”
She nodded.
He had been worried that her sheltered upbringing may cause her a discomfort around crowds, but he was proven wrong. The conditions at the laboratory where she had been brought up had always been cramped and she showed no trouble with the hundred or so mudokons working there, even when they were gathered together for meals. They stood on the catwalk above where the mudokons were eating while slig guards shot them furtive looks, before heading off to the executive cafeteria. Dionysia was probably the first mudokon to have eaten in that room, he thought as they took their places.
The following day they walked around the factory, watching the workers, and he explained to her once again all about sligs and mudokons in a working environment; it was easier to explain certain concepts when they were right in front of them.
He reflected sadly on the second evening that Dionysia’s days were already numbered. The other vykkers had intended to destroy her as soon as the aging process was over and no significant problems arose. He had just managed to convince them otherwise; Mehler was not the sort of person to spend years creating something only to destroy it because it was no longer needed. He had convinced them that the introduction into a factory environment might cause unexpected mental or physical reactions; as he was their psychologist they had accepted this and allowed her to live. The result was that she would spend the rest of her life being prodded and poked with syringes almost every day, but with any luck he would convince them to let her live longer, until the next Black-Skin – a male this time of course – was finished. Their fear was that someone would find out about her relationship to Skillya, but how would it happen? She was a clever girl despite her inquisitiveness and knew better to tell anyone.
Two weeks later Mehler left and Dachau came and replaced him, but after just a week he returned to the lab and Krik took his turn. Krik stayed with her for five weeks; he was still her favourite, Mehler noted dully. Why were people so naturally lured towards that which will cause them the most harm? That was a question he asked himself frequently and every time the result was the same; he would ponder over it for a day and then end up telling himself not to start smoking and stop worrying about such trivial things.
After Krik went, Mehler went to the factory to be with her for a week. She was very quiet and sombre for the first few days and gradually returned to her old, selfish self as the week went on. He asked her what had upset her and but she refused to explain. He asked her about Krik and she told him it was none of his business; she still defended him.
He returned at the end of the week to find Krik laughing with the other vykkers about how he had treated her, and how she still worshiped at his feet and ate out of his hand. Mehler avoided a confrontation as he always did, though the jokes made his blood boil.
So it went on for another year; they moved her between facilities every two or three months and the vykkers took it in turns to go and stay with her. She always got on best with Krik. After six months they started giving her odd days when none of the vykkers were at the facility with her and she got on well. As the year moved into its final quarter the gaps without them became longer and the times when they were with her became shorter. By the tenth and final month of the year they were visiting her just one day in three or four.
Occasionally Krik would come back form days with her with more of the jokes about how he was mistreating her and how she didn’t seem to even notice. Mehler had never been a fiery person and eventually, just over a year since they had first taken her to Director Styre’s shoe factory he decided he would simply talk with his fellow employee, explain to him the psychological effects of his actions.
Mehler did not like Krik much, and it was with unconfessed trepidation that he knocked on the door of the lab where Krik was working and entered. The lighting in the lab was dim; Krik liked working in dim light. Perhaps it had something to do with when he had worked for Skillya.
“Krik, I was hoping we could talk.” The other vykker raised his head, looking disinterested and busy. Mehler took a breath; Krik had been telling more of his joked today. “Do you know what you are doing to that girl?” He asked.
Krik turned back to his work, “I am doing what we were commissioned to do.” He answered brusquely.
Mehler stated, “Maybe I will explain.”
“Please don’t.”
Krik was a geneticist and Mehler was a psychologist, which in scientific terms was as if Mehler spoke Mudosian and Krik spoke only Sliggish. Mehler chose a middle ground to make an analogy, “Do you know what a cell wall does?”
Krik sighed, evidently feeling his time was being wasted, “I know enough of what one is. I am not a plant biologist… And when last I checked neither were you. I fail to see how this is relevant to the experiment.”
“A cell wall is a tough layer found around plant cells which protects the plant from infection. As the cell ages the cell wall gets tougher and tougher, stronger and stronger.” There was a more serious tone in his voice as he went on, “Eventually the walls get so strong that they prevent not only infections from entering, but also nutrients, water, air; the cell is smothered by the walls that it built to protect itself, and it dies inside of them.
“You’re doing the same thing to Dionysia. You make her depend on you for protection, and then you turn against her. You force her to build walls around herself, to put on a mask, to hide herself from the world, and you continue to hurt her; we all hurt her, and force her to build those walls stronger. Eventually the girl inside those walls will be smothered and die and only the shell will be left. You’re killing her.”
Krik did not look up, “Isn’t that what we want from her? Obedience, and denial of her mudokon nature? That is the name of the project.”
At length, Mehler gave his responded, his tone icy and ironic, “You are the very model of a vykker, my friend.”
Krik was so surprised by this that he looked up. Mehler had already gone.
Some distance away, Dionysia was lounging across a catwalk, looking down at a factory floor where twenty or so mudokons were working and sweating over a long, noisy machine producing glass bottles of some sauce. She looked up to see some unrecognised slig coming towards her. Odd, she knew all the sligs here at least by sight. This guy must be new. This theory was confirmed when he drew his gun at her.
“What are you doing up here, Mud?” He barked.
Dionysia rolled her eyes, “I work up here, Slug,” She drawled in an insolent tone that would make his blood boil, “You might want to check with your boss before waving that thing around,” She made a lazy, unconcerned gesture in the general direction of his gun to further annoy him. Her eyes were sharp, however, and she had already noticed the grenades and penknife on his pants, and the scars on his arm and waist.
The sligs expression did a complicated manoeuvre before he announced, “Oh, you’re the experiment the vykkers dumped here!”
She sneered at him, “No, I’m the experiment my vykkers have charged your boss to look after, and he wouldn’t be happy to here any slig had been bothering me.”
She turned and swaggered away. The slig glared at her back, muttering swearwords under his breath.
Another slig approached him from behind slapping him on the back. “Hey Stivik, just met the High Queen of Mudos?”
“What, that mud?” He noticed the other slig sniggering so he snorted. “S’nothing a bullet to the head wouldn’t fix for her if I got the chance.”
“Huh, don’t bet on that. If there was a chance to finish her off without the boss knowing you’d have every other slig in this place to compete with.”
The two sligs continued on their way, laughing about the best punishments to use on rebellious mudokons, but Stivik secretly pushed a concealed button on the black box at his waist. The Magog Cartel would be very interested to here how the muds here were allowed to behave.
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Dun-dun dhunn!!!
That's right, the next part will feature the one and only Stivik!
You know I like Mehler. He got pushed aside by bigger personalities, both from ours and Dionysia's view since its in his nature to be quiet, but he was always there in the background and he would have made a better friend to Dionysia than Krik or Dachau. Certainly the experiment mattered to him - he supported the aging drugs for example - but so did she, which is why he was different from the others. Decrough wanted his experiment, Dachau wanted to get at Krik and Krik wanted to aid himself.
I really ought to have another look over this chapter since its creation was so unsmooth, but it'll probably have to wait. Life and all that. I think I had too much to say for one chapter but not enough for two, so I sacrificed some of the detail in places.
New chapter will come when I've written it to be perfectly honest. W@RF seems to be at death's door which is both good and bad for this story but we'll have to wait and see.
In the mean time reply! And with any luck you'll see Stivik's return by the end of next week.
Coming soon: 'Traitor's Loyalty', now there's an oxymoron.
Just noticed this story has been going for over a year. Now there's incentive to read!