Aww...
I'm really sorry for your lost, Ed.
I can't say I know how it feels like, because I haven't lost a pet. Okey... my pet frog, Veera died years ago, when I was about 9-11 or something. I took three frogs from our school aquarium, because our teacher was giving them away. (He had taken them from a pond...) We were on our summer cottage and I left food to my frogs, Veera, Viivi and Vaavi (
), so it didn't die from lack of food, but it got too big and should've let it go already, as it had got its legs already... But Viivi and Vaavi survived and I was extremely happy watching them jumping to freedom, when they were old enough.
It was nice. It was cool having them. I had this little treasure box in the aquarium and there were some old coins. And there were all kinds of plants and stuff there. I loved decorating it. Eh... it is illegal though, to take any animal from the wilderness as your pet, though. Not everywhere, but in here. And it is a good thing.
My sister's partner's dog has died, though. And my sister's cat and hamster. And my grand parents' dog. And my ex- best friend's two rats. And my aunt's 5 dogs. And I was very sad and cried my eyes out every time... But
my pet has never died, (except for Veera, but I had it for three weeks, and I didn't get too attached to it and I was a stupid kid back then...) so I don't know what it's like. *snif*
I couldn't handle it, if Fanny suddenly died...