[sheridanm962]

It seems to be the same with anyone I think, I slip up everytime when posting and people think it's intentional, I try changing at least ONE pattern in how I post to make that certain formula and BAM the wrong mixture is created and then forms a gel that gets stuck in my head and pisses me off because it's so dry.

I know I hardly know how to post,
I hate lurking because I don't ACTUALLY learn ANYTHING unless I experiment with actual posting and then try the next day, it's a bad way to go about it but it's better than lurking and is worth it in the end, I'm starting to get my rep up which is nice.... For now.

I just wish I can be apart of this community of what it is and not me being another drop kicked banned user who clawed his way out after being shat on for being an asshole and getting worked up when I should have been more calm and thought about what I will post.

In the end: I'm sorry if you hate me.


I know that has nothing to do with what you are saying but it relates to it.

Welcome back and please have a nice stay here, I'm a new person and I am not proud of it and I hate being that new person who gets treated like I treat the In Real Life morons of this society of today.

I judge myself this way and so does almost everyone on this forum, I can't live with it but tough shit.