I'm thanatophobic. The idea of not being alive, of not having a consciousness with which to sense anything, utterly terrifies me. I'm talking "panic attack" level fear, and it gets worse if I even entertain the idea that it won't last forever. I know it's coming someday, there's nothing I can do to stop it from happening. Even now, just typing this out, I can feel one of the panic attacks coming on.
You bet your sweet ass I enjoy being alive.
There, I've posted. Quick, someone talk about bees.
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