[Dipstikk]

The only phobia that has managed to terrify me beyond rationality is basically the prospect that I will die one day and there's nothing I can do to stop it from happening. The idea of just losing awareness and everything being extinguished, not being able to interact with anything for an eternity is the scariest thing I can imagine.

It causes a mild panic attack at its worst, but it's strong enough to keep me from sleeping (and manifests most often when I'm trying to get to sleep)- my room is dark and I'm lying on my bed in a certain way and the whole thing feels like I'm in a coffin.

Man I didn't want to turn this into two paragraphs.