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Oh, I'm like that too. I'm a lot better than I used to be, but I still avoid phone calls whenever I can. I used to be terrible; I'd put off and put off and put off important phone calls. Then I'd ring and hang up and almost hyperventilate with stress.
I'm also not particularly good socially with new people. I get paranoid and think that I've put my foot in my mouth or think that I've pissed them off somehow.
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I was actually going to go a phobia school for this, cos apparently it helped my sister's friend who has the exact same problem... But they dont have any classes
Or at least they didnt when I had time. Now Chris is coming, so I wont have time for em at all.
But yea... My sister enjoys taking me to parties and out clubbing. But to be honest, I really dread them. Sometimes I end up all alone, amongst all these people, stressing out because I don't know what to do. Meanwhile my sister is having fun conversations with all of them. She sometimes forgets about me, but she doesnt mean to.
Anyway sometimes the occasional guy comes up to talk to me, and I often ask myself why it's only guys who do it and why and then I come to the conclusion that they just wanna screw me.
Also I cant talk to people at all. I don't know if it's me that's doing it wrong. I just often feel I'm talking "at" people. Like I try to engage in conversation and then they just come with brief answers and don't make the conversation progress. It's really annoying.
Either way I'm rambling. I don't even know what Im talking about anymore. I just wish I was a better socialite and stopped overthinking. I can think my friendships to death, to the point where I just wanna tell them to fuck off. Without them having done anything.
Hm..