Numerous memories, many bad, kept resurfacing as he slept. The one where he found his fathers murdered body. Other's dealing with his time under Myron's control...and the painful experaments he did on him. Seeing his only friend in that odd damned place get killed right in front of him just before he escaped the compound itself.
Others were more recent.
Like the time when Cyrus managed to capture him and forced him to watch helplessly as he shoot and killed two muds and a third get devoured by scrabs. Or the time very recently where he failed to rescue a child from the grasp of a hungry preditor...who ended up being a crossbreed like him.
Why am I constantly reminded o' my failures? he thought, When I have done as many, if not more, things that were successful?
//Because you are a failure\\ a mean sounding voice said.
How am I a failure!? Spider's mind voice growled.
//You grew too soft hearted for your own good, due to Bastek's influence. You never grew up to become the vicious creature you were created to be.\\
Jus' because I decided ter become something other then what the majority wanted does not make me a failure!
//Ah but you are a failure in the eyes of the Cartel. That's why you were reduced to the status of a meer lab animal.\\ the voice chuckled evilly. //You could have become so much more...evil. You started to when you became a cannibal but you reversed that now...\\
I wasn't bein' evil! I had no choice! I did it ter survive!
//There are always choices...you could have either just stayed in the labs...or just let yourself starve to death.\\
I didn' stay in the labs because that was a fate worse then death! I did what I did because I didn' want ter die! I wanted ter live and experience what life was really like!
//And do you think you could ever be truly excepted into a 'normal' sociaty? What makes think they are not just using you and drive you away when they no longer have a use for you...?\\
They wouldn't use me! They love me fer who I am!
//You sure about that?\\ the voice laughed.
Yes I am sure!
//We shall see when the time comes.\\
What the frack der yer mean by that?
The voice just laughed maliciously and there was a flash of bright red...then nothing but empty space and the voice was gone.
Who our what was that? Spider thought, Was it a glimpse of what I could have become...?
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