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You fuckers have the conversations that I may actually be interested when I'm away. Stupid fuckers, all of you.

Anyway, when I was a child I used to see a man walk in my bedroom door, stand in the corner, and stare at me. Sometimes there would be more than one, and some of them would do more than just stand there. There was one in particular who would all of a sudden start walking towards my bed. If I shut my eyes, and then opened them again it would be back where it started, but it would always start walking towards me again. I saw these things every night. Every single fucking night for years. If I went into my parents bedroom they would follow me in there. I did not sleep much as a child.

Of course, it's all bullshit. It was the product of the over-active imagination of a very lonely and terrified little boy. This is the gift that the church gave to me. In the process of stealing my childhood by convincing my mother that I should be shut away from the world to keep me from it's evils and temptations, it also convinced my young mind that supernatural forces wanted to destroy me. I will never forgive these people for their irresponsible behavior, and I intend to dance on their fucking graves some day.

Edit: It's nice that some of you are able to have faith. I get that it makes life easier to believe that there is a loving god waiting for you after death. But none of you live in the world that you believe in, not even you Splat. You like the stories, and you like the benefits, but you have never had to live the super-fundamentalist lifestyle, and I'm going to say something that most you will no doubt disagree with: If you aren't a fundamentalist, you aren't a Christian. You don't get to temper ancient texts with modern wisdom. IF MODERN WISDOM CHANGES YOUR FAITH THEN YOUR FAITH WAS INHERENTLY WRONG TO BEGIN WITH. Also, it isn't fair. It isn't fair that I had to live through what I did, and you don't. I know that's a stupid and shit argument, but I don't care. It isn't fucking fair.

You all look at Westboro Baptist Church and have a good laugh. But I lived that shit. It isn't funny to me. There is very little difference between the church that I spent every day of my childhood in and those people. I can be quite callous, but my heart fucking breaks for those children.