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In Paul's letters he goes on and on about his own evilness. He talks about 'inner groanings that words cannot express'. He is repulsed by what he is; he hates his evilness, and I agree with him. I hate what I am; I wish with all my heart and soul that I could go a day without getting it wrong! In Romans 7:24 Paul writes, (paraphrase) "How wretched am I! What can possibly save me from this evilness that infects me?"
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i find that to sound quite disturbing. when i read it i felt like i had shot back through time and was being told i was evil and needed to beg for forgiveness by my mother. not being 'funny' either. i genuinely think that its a bit extreme to have to hate yourself for committing sins and then levelling yourself out with rapists, murderers and the like. hate is a very strong word.
and to me that sounded like Paul was suffering mentally. i'm sure if someone obsessed over them self in that fashion nowadays they would be forced to seek help, and it would be for a good and legitimate reason.