The captured ones
Since I didn't complete my fanfic for the fanfiction writing competition I'll start posting the chapters here...
the chapters are not very long and I will upload the story once or twice in a week...
-hope you guys like it
The captured ones
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I refuse to open my eyes.
Desperately I’m clinging to the darkness that is surrounding me. I squeeze my eyelids together as tight as I can, not letting any light reach me.
Light means that I’m still alive and that all my hopes are shattered. Light means that I have survived it again, and that they will use me again.
The mere thought is sickening me.
My arms and legs are shackled so tightly that I feel all numb. Floating in an endless black nothingness –But that’s good. I don’t want to feel the pain again. I don’t want to find out what they have done to me this time.
I press my cheek against the cold operating table, trying to calm down, struggling to suppress the nausea. Cold sweat is running down my neck and I‘m shivering.
“Maybe it’s just a bad dream…. A very bad dream ….and I will wake up the next moment… I will be in my village and everything will be fine…†I whisper soundlessly to myself over and over again.
I never have been good at lying … I can’t even lie to myself…. and still …I try as hard as I can to remember my village…
But there is nothing.
…just blackness … surrounding me.
My heart throbs painfully. I can’t remember their faces anymore. I can’t remember my life as a free Mudokon anymore. The village …the forests …my friends ... Was it just a dream? … Did this part of my life ever exist? –I can’t remember and suddenly it seems to me as if I try to remember a long forgotten story someone else had told me …. Someone else’s memories - but not mine.
Tears are filling my eyes, as if they could return my memories to me. Every drop for a precious moment of my past… but I hold them back. I don’t want to open my eyes to let those tears go, I fear that nothing will be left of me.
I don’t want to die and yet it’s the thing I wish the most.
But I don’t want to die alone. Not like this. Not in this hell.
I gasp for air and open my eyes.
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-to be continued- (if i get at least 1 reply)
Last edited by scipionyx; 11-17-2009 at 06:39 AM..
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