I don't quite know where I am going with this, but to wrap things up, there are three levels of the psychic apparatus. Id, ego, and super-ego. If that confuses you, let me simplify. Me. Me and You. Me and the world. Me is where the child hits the other kid on the head, grabs the toy, and says "mine".
Me and you is where the child has eggsalad for lunch, and the child next to him has PBJ, now the child with the PBJ doesn't like eggsalad any more than the first child, so the first child says, "I will give you my Eggsalad, and this pudding cup, in exchange for your PBJ" (though trading anything for a pudding cup is insanity, I tell you). Me and the World is the child's father, who looks down upon them in an entirely different view.
I've been Id, back when I was child, I've been ego, back in middle school, and most of my high school years. I know I am not ego now, for ego would take my position, and go into a fit, asking why God would do such a thing, and how it isn't fair, isn't somehow equivalent. If I am not id, nor am I ego, what can I be, if not something else.
Though I don't think I like the term "super-ego"...too haughty, and what the name implies is infact not haughty and high nosed. But is infact from what I see, a hightened since of humility, since it's not particularly connected to the world of id and ego. but looks at them from a step to the side.
I may be wrong on my views on the psychic apparatus. but all I know is I feel somehow...disconnected from certain things in this world. it's hard to explain.
have a good one, OWF. Hope I didn't depress you too much
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