[Cloverfield]

I used to be a bit like a few people here, but I've learned to just take things as they are. Looking back I can see that over the last six months I have found gradual change in me and even more so from only a few weeks ago when I first realized that this change was occurring.

When I was in school, I was never popular, I had a small group of friends (no more than 5) and I never had a boyfriend at school (or college for that matter). Even up to about six months ago I'd wonder why I didn't have many friends or anyone to go out with (I have workmates, etc but we never went out very often). I tried to make friends in other places, but it never worked out. I've always had more friends on the internet than real life. I aren't blessed with a good body (being overweight and having a low metabolisim).

But now I look at things differently. I get along with my workmates and have a job that is quite good, and one of them is a friend who I do contact after hours, we play Diablo II online with some other people. If I meet a new friend in RL, great, if not, so be it. My internet friends are very special to me, and are the best friends one could ever have. Who cares if they are interstate or on the other side of the world and I can't "go out" with them. They are very special people and mean a lot more to me than anyone I know here.

I've managed to travel overseas, visit Oddworld. I have a fairly successful Oddworld site. Things generally work out. I'm being positive now, taking up walking as excercise and watching what I eat. It does't worry me that I don't have a boyfriend... if something's meant to happen it will. I have a great family who I get along with really well. I enjoy going on the computer and playing games a lot, who cares if I don't go out ... that's not me anyway... I tried it, I didn't like it. My life isn't perfect, no ones is, and some things still get to me, but I have a long way to go, as the stage where I am at is still a learning stage.

My advice is to just accept things as they are. They are happening for a reason. Who cares if you only have a few friends, cherish the ones that you have.

Abe Babe...