Dragadon....i won't tell you to 'hang in there' as i'm going through very similar problems myself..(i'm also severly depressed) and it's easier said than done.
i hope you seek out proffessional help..i have and it seems to be working..slowly, but still having a good effect.
Just don't let it over whelm you okay?
although i think i have never really 'talked' to you, feel free to drop me a line at
captainhowdy@redtailboa.net ...
I'm always around to listen..