Best: Any moment I spend with Luke. Aww...
Worst: Probably something involving traumatizing moments with my father. He was a bad and violent alcoholic man--a dangerous monster that haunted my life... but at the same time, he was my "daddy" who I also had some sweet, happy moments with. That confused feeling alone can leave scars upon scars in a innocent little girl's mind.
The thought of what he might have become if he hadn't been raised in a horrible environment is unbearable--the thought that such family cycles exist that have led to the empty place in my heart which a loving father should have filled.
*shrug* At least I have broken the cycle for myself.
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