[Rich]

Alright I can respect that, but this is a delicate issue. I know what you mean about getting over death quickly. Both my Nans have died but I felt very little loss which upsets me now, I feel guilty as though they didn't mean anything to me. I loved them both but now I feel maybe I was living a lie as I feel ashamed of myself for being so apathetic towards people who loved me dearly.
I loved them but felt guilty when I didn't cry or feel any great loss. I didn't feel like crying or being upset.

What makes it worse is that I KNOW I would be upset if my mom or dad died, so I should have felt upset when these other people died.
But I think that I can relate my feelings to my atheism and positivity. When I attend funerals I have to stop myself from laughing, which sounds really wrong, but because to me the religious service is like a farce.
I suppose I don't feel the grief as I like to remember things positively, not dwell on them negatively.