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So what? Yer sayin' that, I actually made people post more in this thread? Dipstik, should I reply good or bad towards this?
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It would seem so. I'm sorry for ever saying anything... I really am. I know my life is worthless and all, but the oddworld forums is really all I have left now. Its making me think about what I said awhile back, I said I was back for good, but now I can say that I might have lied. I dont mean to vent, but what did I do wrong that makes people hate me like this? Even my family... my mom ended her life because of me, at least thats what everyone tells me. They even do it to my little brother and sister. Its as if nobody wants them to be happy. I'm used to it, I've had to deal with it my entire life. But when I see how it effects my brother and sister, it just rips me up inside. Why dose this matter to you though, you seem to be one of the ones who wants to keep me in pain. Every time I try to stand up for something... I get pushed back down, and then everyone blames me for something or another. I try to make people happy, but they always turn it against me. I should have given up a long time ago, but instead I kept trying. Now I'm miserable and I know its my fault. I am worthless and hated to almost everyone I have ever met, and for the few that I'm not worthless to, they should be. I'm sorry, but I really needed to vent. I hate having to feel this way, but my mind wont let me feel any other way now. I dont like being depressed, but no matter what medication they put me on... it never changes. I know you dont care, but I hope you understand. I dont think you do. I have the feeling that for some reason or another you are thinking of ways to turn this against me, just like the many others that have done so in the past. But I could be wrong, and if I am, I'm sorry you read this... its just some chick venting.