[TheRaisin]

I'm afraid of being rejected by girls. It's as simple as that. At the time that outside influences were causing me to have low self-esteem I actually felt fine about myself (after all, little kids always love themselves). It's only now that I start feeling like there's something really wrong with me and everyone is judging me and I'm not good enough for anything. I think this is not helped by my depression and paranoia. And it's bullshit because I know that NOW people are mature enough to not care how I look. People don't give me (much) crap about the way I am. But it's too late. I have ingrained on my grey matter this horrible self-image that, try as I might, I CAN'T ****ING GET RID OF! BLOODY HELL!

Mentioned the mood swings, right? Yeah.

So that's why I fear interaction with other people, especially girls. Although lately what I've really been afraid of is that I won't ever be able to interact, and that when I graduate from high school everyone around me will be having wild sex with their girlfriends and hanging out with their home slices while I'm left horribly alone, alone, alone! Doomed to an unfulfilling adult life which will inevitably end in miserable impoverished aloneness!

But why am I spewing out all of this? I made this thread so other people could tell me how much they suck and I could feel better by comparison. Commence!

The first two sound right. But ADD? I don't have trouble focusing. I have trouble caring. Pleh.