I know I'm a bit late with this its... all said and done basically (you've posted some great things here guys)
But just want to mention that if you want to chat Mudokon... just PM me... I know that I find it really difficult to talk about my feelings but writing them (typing them!) helps me to open up!...
Infact... I used to keep a journal and write my thoughts and feelings in it... if the stuff I wrote was a little "dark" shall we say... I used to rip the pages out and burn them (safely!)
It was great... a real feeling of release! Try writing stuff down... you don't have to show anyone... but like I said... if you need a listening ear... or rather "reading eye" I'm ya gal!
And don't worry... you're perfectly normal to feel this way... don't be ashamed of it... it'll only make it worse.
CB xx