You ever lost a family member Reese? Cause it's not just the first shock and about a month afterwards with a family member, it's lasting damage, and everything has to change afterwards, especially with a parent.
But, enough of my grief, bad luck Alcar, remember, he's not really gone, and at least you did have some good times with him. I'm gonna dedicate a chapter of one of my stories to him (i won't place the name or exact forum (there are 2 possibilities) because I don't want to sound like I'm advertising. I'll also try and make a poem up for him. I'm good at that sort of thing
In the mean time,
"I took my troubles to the LORD;
I cried out to him, and he answered my prayer." Psalm 120 vs 1.