When did you understand you need to change?
 

Basically, when I came to Germany (half a year ago). I understood how much of abrasive filth I actually was and started to work hard to become the best version of me.

That was also the time I started listening to ethnic music all the time.

Idk I've changed a lot. The first time was when I met this guy in highschool, he kinda showed me what it meant to have ambitions. 3 years later was my next change, when I realized that despite the fact he did a great thing for me, he was a shitty person and that I needed to care about myself too. And last night I realized I need to start actually doing shit with my life and removing the toxic bitches who hold me down.

I was a homophobic Catholic and now I'm a pansexual atheist and it's all OWF's fault.

I'm already perfect.

Literally last summer

same

Anyone else would think this is a joke but anyone was around for this knows it's (amazingly) actually true.

B)

I have no sense of smell so I switch the undies and socks everyday and change my t-shirt every couple of days. Seems to work out.

Well, I wasn't consciously homophobic, but I was horrifically mean and lacked a filter.

Probably when I realized that allowing abusive people into my life made me push away the people who actually meant some good for me.

And maybe after I got arrested for the third or fourth time.

Oooo people being arrested.

So... that's why you're not visiting OWF often, right?

The only thing that's changed about me is the fact i've learnt not to give a single fuck what anyone thinks or says about me.

OWF helped a lot with that.

Not so long ago you called OWF a cancer and were angry to the point of wanting to leave forever.

I've understood it since, like, 2012. Just haven't found a way to do it yet.

That reaction was from reading some of the comments in a derailing thread and it pissed me off. Plus the fact I was particularly grumpy that day.

I wasn't involved nor was it about me. Sometimes this place can make you want to scream.

I guess I kind of realised it before, but it only really sunk in that I couldn't just ignore the fact that I was unpleasant, irritable and annoying and everything would be okay when my girlfriend of two years whom I thought I was going to marry left me in tears and said she still loved me but couldn't be around me. And yeah, she got with someone else a month later and admitted that she hadn't been in love with me for a long time, but the reasons for that were the same. I don't want to treat anyone horribly, let alone people I love, and I need to change so that I can avoid acting like that and be aware of it when I am.

Trying to be a good Husband was a good reason to change my worst habits and focus on self improvement. :happy:

I can grow a beard now. Mostly.

After the age of 3, I became obsessed with the acquisition of knowledge. Since that day, I've been trying to grasp the inner machinations of the universe. At the age of 12, I adopted a philosophy: the most rational decision is the best decision. Think things through carefully, consider your choices, and then act. Abandon emotions, they get in the way of everything and impair your judgement. Collect information, use the information to give you an advantage over others. Collect evidence, look at it, consider its implications, and make a judgment based on your findings. At my current age, I have realized that OWF is a cesspool, and have begun to rethink joining this forum kill me

We already know you're the most changed member. No need to come in here and show off.

My hair has changed way more over the past few years than I have.

Probably a few days ago when I came scarily close to committing suicide via jump rope hanging.

I don't even know if it would've worked.

Like...for real?

I feel normal with you guys.

Mr. Bungle, stop watching Gravity Falls. You will feel better.

When I saw myself... and catched myself always thinking about the girl,
who didnt want to be with me..., that was so disgraceful and I felt as I have nothing more to offer than that... every other girl isnt as interesting than "that" girl...

So I thought to myself (if I can really think at that time) that I need to change... and that as fast as possible..., so I try not to think about her and at the same time I try to work on me as harder I could...

(It is not her fault, I would do anything for her, I love her so much..., but I dont like the temporary condition, I feel that something big is waiting for me anyway, that is what me keeps going forward, all or some of the time. :) )

For real. It's pretty sad, but at least I'm getting some professional help now.

I hate myself so much.

If you ever need someone to chat to feel free to PM me or add me on Steam or something.

Welcome aboard fam

Eh?

What about OddChat? Don't keep Mr. Bungle to yourself.