Death is a bitch and so is my Mom.
 

A very dear friend of mine just died a few days ago. He was from a nuclear family so I fear that the family will break apart. They may be very religuious which taints my tastes often, but they're probably the best people I've ever met. I was informed today, it felt like a piece of my soul died when I heard the words. My mother and I drove all the way to the house for reunion and stuff and I got a chance to see one of my best friends from my old school.

Now, my mother is accusing me of being igorant for "not fully embracing death," bullshit. Apparantly she thinks bawlin her ass off for 20 hours is "fully embracing death." I feel dissillusioned and angry. Has anyone here felt the same way before?

Dont worry about it. I'm not good I think with accepting when other people die, or people very close or loved ones die. My Saxophone teacher who I had lessons with for five or six years passed away last October, and at the funeral I got misty eyed and really sad, but I was quite frustrated because I couldnt cry. No matter how much it hurt or I was upset and sad, etc. I couldnt bring myself to accept fully he was gone and I would never see him again.

You are so lucky that you could cry, expressing youe emotions is a good thing.

I know, but I just don't cry. Not because I try to look all macho, but because I just feel it inside more than outside. He was really cool too, and it sickens me more how the way he died. He got shot with a sniper in Iraq, he was so enthusiastic about being in the military. If one death causes this much grief, then din't even want to imagine how everyone else must feel.

Aww, ish okay, uzed:smiley:.

For used:).

Losing anyone isn't a good thing. Just ask me if you need anything. :)

...anything.

Hahaha! You should make animated smiley gift cards as a business, Super Munch.

Hey Used, first of all [ignore the cheese] if you want to talk {like Sm said} you can talk to me [although not anything:p].

I don't know what to say about your mum, only that she probably doesn't understand your situation. I don't know her [and I'm sure someone she has loved has died] so I can't really say, but perhaps a friend of hers has never died. Or when someone she loved died, she just went AWOL with grief. But I don't know. Don't let what she says upset you, you deal with this how you want, when you want.

You've got alot of people here who love you, and I'm sure, alot of people offline who love you too. Everyone's here for you at the moment, so just do what you feel is best for you. Don't become pressured into anything, and if you need to talk, we are all ready to listen.

I didn't really know what to say, but I hoped this helped.

- Rexy

I don't always cry at death. You don't have to cry to accept that someone you liked/loved is gone, it's much deeper than that.

I already don't like your mom!

How do you animate a gift card?

Buttseckz?!!??11

Wiff majick.

...anything.

So, what's the situation now, used:)?

Everything's Gonna Be Alright
 

Things have improved, but the mother of my friend is still in tears.

Mother mary?

Or are we talking about a different friend here?

I never cry anymore, the last time i cried was when my Woggle was put to sleep, which was awful. In fact, when it comes to people in general i hardly feel any emotion when it comes to their deaths.

I seem to seethe apathy.

I don't thiink of death is a bad thing, not that it's good either, but death free's you from this world, ppl that I was close too have died, but I did not mourn I just simply missed them and I paid my respects. letting them know I do miss them.