This place is so tiring these days. You're not fun any more. I've got nothing left to say here, so I'm out.

And this isn't like last time I left when I was sorting my shit out. This is me making the call that this place fucking sucks.

There are lots of people contributing in one way or another. Some of you know who you are. Some of you will read this and think "yeah those assholes!"

Just chill the fuck out all of you. Have fun. If you're making a post...

I've only left the house one time, except for grocery shopping, some uni stuff, one day when I worked and random walks. I have nowhere to go and nothing to do. It feels kind of like I've been dropped by my friends.

The last 6 months I've done literally nothing. It's been a confusing mess of not knowing what I'm capable of and having nothing to do. I wanted to join like a club or something maybe? But with my health I couldn't really commit to anything regular. I was going to go to...

Also I'm a computer science student now, for the next year at least.

I for one welcome our new smarmy overlord.



We see your change in party leader, England, and raise you a dethroned PM. Meet the soon-to-be-appointed PM of Australia, Malcolm Turnbull.

Maybe that's an exaggeration. It's not like I can't get up and move around. I'm moving a lot better than I was a few weeks ago. I can make my bed without getting breathless, don't get stressed out about making a cup of tea etc. It's more that I'm struggling to do anything. I still can't manage sitting up all day. Walking is fucking exhausting. I've completely dropped uni for this semester now, and I really just wish I could walk for hours and hours every day. If I could I definitely would. I've...

I have it.

So uni is really hard at the moment. Impossibly hard. The new semester has just started, and it's looking a lot like I'll be dropping out at this point, again. I'm not sure though. It looks like it might vaguely be possible to push through, but I really don't know. It's confusing, it's stressful.

I managed to struggle through last semester somehow, but I only really started getting bad in the last few weeks. Now I'm starting the semester out of juice. I was...

Time to play a game!

Did our Australian Leader Most Glorious, Tony Abbott, really say this following the recent legalisation on gay marriage in the US?
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So I talked to people about my depression. I went on meds. I've now come off of some of them. I'm in the process of weaning off the last of them now completely. It's only the beginning of dealing with this, and we need to find the tablets that work best, but I feel good. Everything is a lot clearer. I still have ups and downs - I'm still a person - but I don't spiral into horrible dark places any more. If I get stressed I can deal. It feels good.

So now there's just everything else...

I need help to deal with my day to day life. I'm completely crippled by anxiety at this point. I don't want to do my uni course any more. I can't talk to anyone about any of this. I want to. I can see how bad I'm letting everything get. And I just can't ask for help. I can't stop smiling and pretending that everything is ok. Sometimes I feel like I'm being crushed inside. Like I can't breathe. Like this huge weight is on top of me.

I know what the problem is. I know what to do about...

Yoda never says this, yet someone felt the need to attribute this quote to him. We live in a strange world.