I'm a mess in a dress 8D
For some time I've been studying what a good game designer's skill-set would be. I know it requires creativity, a good sense of composition,etc. in art, as well as some math and programming skills. I also remember writing skills - which I know I'm good at. Not GREAT, but I know I'm not bad and that excites me. (If you know what else, do let me know so I can add it to my list of things to study)
I have to wait until my laptop arrives before I start learning C++ - although any other programming language would really help if you know what it is game designers use. What I'm really paranoid about is my art. I'm afraid it's not good enough and I spent days scouring the internet looking for someone who posted what their portfolio requirements were. I FINALLY found it - but their end-of-quarter portfolio was the only one listed. So all I can do is use that and do what I can. I'm just so paranoid that I won't be good enough, because it's almost impossible to become a professional artist in such a short amount of time.
I've definitely been going over what I consider to be my weaknesses (which is virtually everything). My real strength lies in my eyes, although I think I could use more improvement. I've been able to take something, look at it, and draw it without too much hassle. But anything that will help is always good. I've also got to know how to design vehicles and machinery (and the Oddworld art book is FULL of those to study from).
My other real fear is the financial aid. I live too far away from any colleges so if I went to one I'd HAVE to live on campus, which is incredibly expensive. My only real hope is that a) I GET financial aid and they cover it or b) I'm able to get a part-time job while I'm there to help pay for it. I know they'll help me but only so much. Of course, I've never had good experiences with winning things or getting stuff. Hell, I can't even seem to get hired for much of anything, so college really IS my only way out. But if I don't get financial aid, I'm going to be stuck living with my family forever. -sob.-
So like. I just have to keep hoping.