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I need advice.

Posted 10-17-2011 at 10:59 PM by StrangerEastwood

Recent years have been especially hard for me. I dont like to whine, but...well, I need to speak on the subject for once. As a gamer, writer, artist and all around nerd-Doctor Who, Firefly, Evangelion, the works-and open Bisexual I have enough against me as it is. You might know me as the quiet kid at the back of the class who doesnt say much because he is shy and genuinely has nothing to say.

Everyday since jr.High and on I have endured judgement in the eyes of everyone besides my good friends. People look at me and make up their minds that I'm some kind of freak and as such is clearly toxic. I am not a confrontational person, and somewhat of an introverted guy anyway.

It has gotten worse. I have been constantly verbally abused, comments about my sexuality in particular. Even at home I recieve more verbal abuse from my father-it is just getting to be too much. There is nowhere for me to go, and confrontation will only make it worse.

I guess I just need some help or something...I dont know...I just cant take much more of this. I guess more than anything I just needed to vent...well, thanks for reading. I realize it's mostly rambling, but oh well.

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	Verbally abused by who? Are you at university or something?
	Posted 10-17-2011 at 11:16 PM by moxco

	College, yup. not to mention other...fun people of whom I must suffer due to obligations and whatnot. My life is an unnecessary web of unfortunate relationships and obligations.-_-
	Posted 10-17-2011 at 11:39 PM by StrangerEastwood

	If thus relationships are unnecessary and unfortunate why do they continue to exist?
	Posted 10-17-2011 at 11:44 PM by moxco

	Due to their connections with the necessary ones. Family, friends, lovers-they all come with the bad and useless relationships that are not so easy to get out of. Especially when some are irritating because they rely on me-heavily. But that is a different topic altogether.
	Posted 10-17-2011 at 11:48 PM by StrangerEastwood

I find it quite interesting you mentioned that people are making comments about your sexuality considering you are in college,

I was quite certain that I WAS NOT going to come out in school, just too many dickheads about.........

Wasen't till I was in college that I came out as I felt it would be a more mature atmosphere, and interestingly I was right, people just didn't make a big deal out of it nor abused me over it.

Posted 10-18-2011 at 01:04 AM by JennyGenesis

	I know lots of gay people at school and none of them are teased. Do most people who harass people based on their sexuality really dislike the sexuality, or do they dislike the person and use their sexuality as a means to insult them. JG you stupid queer, limit your ellipses to three periods.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 02:44 AM by moxco

	Probably a combination of both.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 02:53 AM by JennyGenesis

	Quick question: Are you actually gay? Or are they just making assumptions about you?
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:07 AM by Nate

	: open Bisexual .
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:12 AM by moxco

	Whoops. Totally missed that. Well, it's a cliche, but the whole 'It gets better' thing really is true. I had a shitty time through highschool; I was the lowest of the low on the social ladder and got bullied (mostly verbally) semi-regularly. But the moment I left highschool, I left that behind. Shit's so much different in university and in the real world beyond that.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:14 AM by Nate

	I know one bisexual guy who gets called a faggot regularly. The guy who calls him that is the biggest retard (socially and mentally) and, I think, just wants to feel as if someone is below him.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:20 AM by moxco

	Silly Moxco, periods are for girls!
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:29 AM by T-nex

	I also find it odd that you're in college and people are making fun of you. Through my whole time in sixth form I haven't received any abuse like I did in high school. Students usually grow up when they get to that age. Mind you, I've noticed the people that said things to me either went to college or full time work, not sixth form. I dunno.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:37 AM by Jordan

	I went to college What are you trying to say!?
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:47 AM by JennyGenesis

	This is one of our most modest bi-weekly LGBT sympathy discussions.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 03:57 AM by moxco

	I'm trying to say some people go to college instead of sixth form because they can't wait to be detached from the school. The majority of the bullies despised the school and couldn't wait to leave it. However, I'm not saying everyone who goes to college is a cock, but in the case of my year, there aren't any nasties left in sixth form.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 04:01 AM by Jordan

	I had quite a few nasties left in sixth form. Being a horrible person is nothing to do with intelligence.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 07:00 AM by Wings of Fire

	Nothing to do with book smarts or practical skills, yeah, but I'd classify empathetic sociability as a form of intelligence.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 07:26 AM by Wil

	Well the dickheads I were referring to in my previous comment Being blunt about it, Academically they sucked...
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 07:36 AM by JennyGenesis

	Maybe you want to sit down, look at each point that bothers you and work out how to face that problem and end it. Explain those abusive people how they make you feel, if that fails, be abusive back. Might sound rude but it worked for me. Once I started dealing out a little bullshit to the people that usually dosed it to me, they recoiled and pussied out a little bit.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 07:36 AM by STM

	Assholes at school. Asshole co-workers. Asshole family members. And chances are you'll be working for an asshole at some point. Assholes run the world. You either fight them to the bitter end or become an asshole yourself. That's the way I look at it. I, of course, ended up joining them.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 09:33 AM by Sekto Springs

	Point out that you have twice as much (potential) sex as they do.
	Posted 10-18-2011 at 01:27 PM by MeechMunchie

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