I Wrote a Poem

Are you an angel?
No. You’re something better.
You’re no cold ideal
You are not wrath, vengeance, or an immovable platitude
You are April
You are humanity exquisite
You are woman perfection
Of course this is where you shut off your mind
This is where you mutter “bullshit” under your breath
It is not
Perfection is not what so many claim it to be
It is not the absence of flaws
Your very flaws are what bend you towards your perfection
Your weaknesses are beautiful
Your strengths terrifying in their brilliance
You are the burning bush
And I am made blind
I am made blind only to see again
To see more clearly
I see the paths that lay ahead
And you are on them all
You may call me Joshua
And the wall around your heart will be my Jericho
I will walk around this wall
Day in and day out I walk it
I will strut around this wall
I will shimmy
I will shake my groove thing
I will blow my trumpet and I will shout
I love you
I love you I will scream
And you will stand inside your heart
Watching from the safety of your wall
Your eyes will be cold
For this is a strong wall
This is no mere pottery
It is built from a lifetime of hurt
Not the least of which was caused by me
You have built this wall well
And you will say to yourself
What the fuck is he doing
Does he think this will work
All this clatter
All this pomp
All this peacock waving of feathers
Does he believe that by making a fool of himself
That he can make this wall crash down
I do
I have to
I love you
And if the wall does not come down in a year
Still I walk the perimeter
In two
In three
Five, seven, thirteen
Still I walk the perimeter
If on your seventieth birthday the wall has still not fallen
You will glance out your window
And do you know what you will see
My decrepit form dancing around your home
Like some insane shaman who doesn’t know when to stop
Shirtless, I will dance
Spine bent, man breasts sagging
Tassels on my nipples
Clockwise they spin
Then counter
They will hypnotize you
You will be helpless before their charms
And your wall will crumble
Your wall will fall one day
And you will take me back into your arms
There will be no more reservation in your heart
You will know that my love is true
That it has been purified in the anguish of your absence
And I will never lose you again
Never
Never
Never