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I'm just a teenage dirtbag, baby.

Posted 02-26-2011 at 10:29 AM by Nemo

Crazy shit. I came across a word grid, where you're supposed to see five different words based on your current mental state.
"Secret, resent, rage, scum, pogo."
I don't know how pogo sticks got into my subconscious.

I'm afraid I might end up addicted melatonin pills. Silly, I know. But...

My religious views are highly against being controlled by my desires, rather than controlling my desires myself. I don't like the idea of doing drugs for recreational purposes. In fact, there've been several times where I've simply cut off communication with my best friends because they kept mentioning them.

And it worries me that I might be doing the same thing with these pills. They give me very vivid dreams, and in these dreams, certain people I used to know are still around.

A pill a night, and I believe I'm in some other reality.

It's a very good escape from reality, but I'm afraid of how far this'll go. What if I stop getting these dreams? Will I look for other ways to "escape?"

What if I was wrong? What if one of the core principles of my philosophical stance is malarkey? How do I know the term malarkey?

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Sometimes I'll take two melatonin pills a night just to go to sleep. I've never noticed a difference in my dreams when I take them though. I don't think they are very addictive; just mentally maybe. If you're tired enough you'll just start snoozing eventually. Escaping from reality can be quite destructive so you'd better just make yourself happy in real life. You can die from overdosing on sleeping pills!
I still wouldn't get how those pills would have such an effect on you. Do you take anything else that mixes with them? I know you say you're against addictive substances, but haven't you said you took a bunch of meds in the past?

Posted 02-26-2011 at 11:36 AM by ziggy

	I've never had anything but over the counter medicine in the past. I only take these pills with soda or water. I actually don't drink alcohol or need any other medication.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 11:47 AM by Nemo

	oh Well I don't see anything wrong with that myself if you're just taking one a night to have some pleasant dreams. Now if you were taking them during the day then I'd say you have a problem.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 11:57 AM by ziggy

	Can I get a link to a picture of this grid? It sounds interesting.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 02:02 PM by Mr. Bungle


	Posted 02-26-2011 at 02:11 PM by Nemo

	Rage, Maniac, Wisdom, Hate, Secrets
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 02:42 PM by Daxter King

	Passion, Peep, Coke, Suicide, Leave. How strange.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 03:39 PM by Mr. Bungle

	Leave, Malice, Hate, Naked, Scum = Hatred of being locked up, Towards others?, Of close family members on occasion?, A deep hatred, The local estate residents? God am I messed up? I reckon your fine Nemo, you seem a deep contemplative person from what I can tell, a worrier? Calculative certainly, I think you'll know if you have a problem and you'll stop.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 03:44 PM by STM

	I feel like they only put in words with negative meanings and left out positive ones just to make people think they're depressed.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 03:53 PM by Mr. Bungle

	I think wisdom is positive, secrets isn't necessarily negative either.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 03:56 PM by Daxter King

	Well, then it seems like they had more emphasis on negativity at least.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 03:58 PM by Mr. Bungle

	Who here is using a fucking word search to diagnose their mental health? Don't be shy now. But be ashamed.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 04:23 PM by Bullet Magnet

	I was just curious. Chill, bro.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 05:15 PM by Mr. Bungle

	Who here is using a fucking word search that has been consciously manipulated by its creator to contain negative words? Y'all numbnuts. EDIT: Except for Mr. Bungle.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 05:33 PM by Nate

	I didn't have anything else to talk about anyways
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 09:24 PM by Nemo

	SECRET DEED SUICIDE SCUM CHAT Very optimistic thing it is. Can one of our members with a PHD in psychology please diagnose me based on results.
	Posted 02-26-2011 at 11:24 PM by moxco

	Secrets, Naked, Suicide, Scum, Slam I'm irreducibly (apart from sleep) tired from a 12 hour factory shift in Belleville's enormous, city-straddling tampon factory. So tired.
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 04:24 AM by Mac Sirloin

	Fool, crush, wisdom, present, deed. Clearly i'm repressing something.
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 06:17 AM by shaman

	You crushed a man of great wisdom making you feel a fool, why did you crush him with a huge hammer? Because he presented you with a deed to his house. You stupid stupid manchild
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 06:56 AM by STM

	Just tried this on my Dad. Now, over the past few days we've been discussing whether i go to Uni this year or next. He reads the wordchart. Kick, Tom, Leave... Halp!
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 08:43 AM by shaman

	Secrets, passion, suicide, malice and hate. Well, this seems like the highest form of bullshit. If I wanted to kill myself I wouldn't be a chicken shit about it.
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 08:47 AM by Ridg3

	These words are like those stupid zodiacs. Vague enough to fit everyone, but direct enough to make you feel... special or something.
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 09:37 AM by T-nex

	It's a word search! I have a book of them! Here, I'll have a go... Frog, archerfish, louse, aardvark, weevil. ... I SCRY THE FUTURE
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 09:55 AM by Bullet Magnet

	I don't get it I see more than 5 words am I doing it wrong
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 11:43 AM by metroixer

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	Posted 02-27-2011 at 11:43 AM by metroixer

	Also, abandoning your friends for getting into substances is so unbelievably petty and superficial. Shame on you.
	Posted 02-27-2011 at 01:48 PM by Mac Sirloin

It wasn't the fact that they did drugs. I could overlook that. It's that they continually brought it up, and every time they did, it would end up becoming a huge argument.

It got to the point where every time I talked to them, I knew it would end in yelling.

We're friends again, though. We very rarely talk about things pertaining to drugs now, and when we do, we always ask the other if it's alright if we talk about it.

It's a bit strange. That particular friend of mine (and I shall call him Jonny,) and I always end up getting in fights together, but we've always ended up pulling together afterwards. I've known him since 6th grade, and he's still one of my best friends.

Posted 02-27-2011 at 11:31 PM by Nemo

Updated 02-27-2011 at 11:35 PM by Nemo

	Murder, Murder, Murder, Murder and Murder.
	Posted 02-28-2011 at 08:41 AM by MA

	MA, I think that means that you're in love.
	Posted 03-01-2011 at 04:51 AM by T-nex

	The first word I saw was 'Crush'. The second was 'Fooly'. I think it's broken.
	Posted 03-01-2011 at 01:11 PM by MeechMunchie

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