I've been working on this fucking track for 2 hours and then Ableton crashes. So I'm like, "Okay, it'll be fine, it has a project recovery feature". FUCK YOU, ABLETON 9 HAS NO PROJECT RECOVERY FEATURE.
Knowing how much it crashes on My laptop, I'm fucking uninstalling that cunt and going back to 8. At what point did they think "Hmm, we've added a bunch of new stuff, let's trim out the fat, how about the fucking PROJECT RECOVERY?! SOUNDS LIKE A FUCKING PLAN."

I just lost 2...

I haven't made a blog in a while, so I thought I'd do one because I know how much you loooove reading My blogs.

Basically I'm just writing this blog to vent. There's so much strange shit happening with me and I just don't know. It makes me panic.

I can't even be arsed writing this to be honest.
I feel like I've been.getting more paranoid recently, but I can't be sure. Like, just recently I've developed a fear of mirrors, or just My reflection in general. I think it's...

Do they get to go on the fridge?
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So I went to the educational psychiatrist, and it was much better than I expected. I had no reason to be nervous, and I'm sure if I had relaxed it would have been quite calming. I like the little room, you can shut the blinds and the little window on the door so nobody can see in.

So yeah, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it was still horrible. At certain points I just couldn't speak, it was really weird.

She made another appointment for a longer time....

He moved out a couple of months back and I really miss him, he was the person I was closest to.

I went to his sister's 18th the other day and when he went out for a fag I told him.about how I've been referred to an educational psychiatrist, as I might have BDP. I feel so much better now because I was talking to him about it and about My social anxiety and that, and how I hate talking to people, because he says he has the same issues. He told me that he feelslike that, how he just...

I can't tell if baked looks right. I know I spelled it correctly, but it just looks wrong.

Anywho, the title is actually correct. I am baked because of the brownies. Yes, I had my first "Bud" today, with my brother. In some brownies. I thought this was a momentous occasion to write up this blog and mark it down. It's really weird.

That's the noise I made when I found out I'd lost all my work on a new track, I sort of screamed, but with my mouth closed, resulting in a strange monster noise and a red face.
I was actually quite proud of this track, too. It was like old school dubstep.

But I bet none of you here will appreciate this kind...

I woke up at 4.30 pm today. During My sleep I had a dream about being raped by a transformer, and I mean the robots not the electricity transformers. What's weird is the first words I remember saying upon waking youp was "if you want to rape me, I'm fine with it". The scariest thing was that this time it was transformers, not ponies. I've never even watched transformers, except I think once. Forgive My bad sentence structure and possible grammar mistakes because My brain feels strange, I never feel...

Wasn't a bad year. I wasn't even born then, but think about it, we had Friends, South Aprk, Oddworld, The Prodigy, and more stuff. So yes. But 2012 can fucking cunt itself. 1994 should be repeated.

There hasn't been a podcast for while, so I was really excited when I found this. I think it's fucking hilarious.

On a completely unrelated note, here's my Balloon Party submission, I'm pretty proud of it:

I was also thinking about doing some Electro/Dance style stuff similar to The Prodigy, so I'll see how that pans out.

Oh yeah, merry christmas!