No, yeah, why would I expect my stepdad to get me the back pain medicine I asked for?

I mean, it's not like I end up in horrible pain when I sit for extended periods of time because I threw my back out several days ago or anything.


I mean, honestly, why would I have thought that he would've gotten medicine to help with my issues sleeping? That's just silly.

You ever wonder about things you shouldn't wonder about?

Like, whether or not in a different life, you could be a murderer?




Yeah, no, me neither.

Just did a bit of weight lifting.

It's nothing much and it's probably not going to make a difference, but I felt like doing something.

Really looking forward to moving to the coast. Spent a four day weekend there last week. Loved it the entire time.

Took the tennis rackets up there so that me and my parents could play a bit. Wasn't expecting to play for long, and after a minute I realized that I had pretty much no skill with it, but I had fun throughout...

Just can't fucking sleep. I want nothing more in the world than to sleep, and I just can't do it.

This headache is killing me. Had it since about 9 hours ago. Took 2 ibuprofen at 4, popped 3 a half hour or so ago. Instructions said only to take one.

And this fucking song won't leave my head either. I hate this song. The song of the Deku shitbags. You'd think that if they had to listen to it for 24 hours straight, they would've picked a better fucking theme song for...

I might not seem like the type of person for it, but usually when you don't hear from me, I'm working, trying to get some money.

Not that the old man tends to pay me much when he does. He never pays me enough for my work anyways.


I'm trying to get out of here. Out of this fucking town. It was nice when I moved here, but now it's just a festering shit hole. The air smells because of the cow shit and oil fields. There's nothing but crack heads and gang bangers...

Sometimes my friends get me to seriously reconsider things that I feel very strongly about. And it ends up making me worry that I'll be wrong about everything I think.


Is it better to pine for a woman, or to cut her out of your life completely?

I'm not really sure about it anymore.

Haven't slept in almost 24 hours.



Watched her get fucked by some guy.



Where's that plastic bag again? I've got some heavy breathing exercises I want to try out.

By you I obviously mean suicide.





Yet another woman in my life.

I met her in a porn chat room. I know what you're thinking, but no. I'm not just lusting after a chick. In fact, my attraction to her hasn't been sexual yet.

Whenever I watched her, it was all I cared about at the moment. I'm happy to just know her. It's made me doubt whether or not I was ever really in love before.


And yet I still feel...