yo fix your forum. this posted twice. smh can't get the staff

I thought visiting this place again would feel strange. But it really didn't. It was instantly familiar and... honestly really nice. Like looking back at old photos. Although. Dear god I was cringe.

Thought i'll just drop by for a final time. Since this place is deader than my aspirations of becoming a successful YouTuber. I had a lot of fun here. I met some awesome people and you lot were my "other" friends for the longest time. It's nice to see even after all these years people...

EDIT: This was all meaningless bollocks. I was feeling down at the time when I wrote this. Move along.

I was lurking and I'd thought I'd check up on you all. -Well what's left anyway.

So you guys okay? You all still hate me right? well I know at least half of you do. No worries. I hate me too.

All I do now is play Overwatch and make attempts to make youtube videos but fail in spectacular fashion. Thinking about packing the whole thing up next year. Getting...

I know we've been having second thoughts about the Forums and are trying to revive it in a way.

But I just want to say Happy Christmas or whatever you celebrate to all ya who are still lurking on this ancient site.

You lot still mean a lot to me and I really do hope you all have a good one.

Lately my YouTube channel has getting me down. I honestly feel like a complete YouTube failure. And I've lost a lot of motivation to continue.

YouTube is tough, competitive palce with only a small lucky handful ever getting any attention. The fact I'm not in that handful makes me just think. What's the point y'know? I'm sure many of you who also have a channel know what I mean. Aside from Wil. which reminds me, make more damn videos will ya!

I've set myself up for...

A few weeks ago. I found out a mate of mine had been found dead in his house. This was the guy who was online with me and my friends almost every night... I spoke to him only a day before.

Needless to say. Me and my mates were shocked. Some more than others. That might sound odd, but the reason why I knew him in the first place was because he was a housemate of my 2 close friends when they started uni. He was asked to join our little gaming community and he started playing with us....

Direct sequel to this shit thingy

So after looking for a job for roughly 9 months. I found a job a few weeks ago!

I work part time (but work almost every day of the week) at my local Tesco, picking up items for people who've ordered online. (it's called Dotcom picking). It's nothing special honestly. In fact it's pretty standard. It does pay really well though at around £7.00 an hour.

The big thing is however, I start very early. 6:00AM usually! So it's...

I've been feeling so fucking down lately. A couple of reasons really, but mainly because of me not having a job for ages.

I've been unemployed since June of last year. Ever since then I've been looking everywhere for just something. Anything. Full time, part time, I don't care. Just within reason. I refuse to do any jobs involving me either holding up a sign, being dressed as a giant pizza or shouting "Big Issue!" All I want is money and something to mix up my day.

...

Great start to 2015. I'm ill.

I'm not sure what's exactly wrong with me but it's just most likely a bug of some kind. there's a lot of cold and flu going round the UK this Winter.

Not going into huge details but it's mostly down to having shit tons of phlegm. Fuck phlegm man. It's the worst.

I can usually accept being ill and just deal with it. But on top of my trips to the toilet and aches that make me feel like I've fallen down the stairs.
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Just look back at all the shite that has happened in 2014. Deaths, ISS, Ebola. It's just been awful and I'm sure a lot us can relate.

Personally, it's not been that bad for me, but just very recently. I've just been fucking down in the dumps. I lost my job in July and I've been unemployed ever since. I've been looking but nothing. barely even a response. I've put off the job center because they mess you about too much. But now. It's almost Christmas and of course, i'm running out...