So I honestly thought we would end up getting married and having kids. We'd talked about it loads of times, and agreed to wait until we were done with university and had stable incomes. Eventually, she disagreed when I mentioned that, and told me she thought we could manage. I tried to gently let her know that I still didn't think it was a good idea, as much as I really wanted to have a kid with her.

Anyways. She left me a week later. She told me that she still loved me, but just...

I haven't cried since it happened yet. I did a bit earlier today after I visited her and saw how she was. When I visited her in hospital last week she was her usual chirpy self, making smart comments and smirking to herself, and then the day before yesterday she was finding it a bit difficult to talk, and today she could barely manage to wheeze anything out. It was liver cancer. She tried to say something about three times and couldn't get halfway through the sentence. I still don't know what the...

But I have a girlfriend. Life is shit.

When my brother and I moved into this house about six months ago, I took an instant liking to one of the girls who'd already lived here for a couple of weeks. As time went by my feelings for her grew, and something about her manner around me made me wonder whether she might like me also. I told myself she couldn't possibly, while at the same time becoming convinced that she did. I learnt that it's entirely possible to be simultaneously certain that something is true and that it isn't.
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I don't really have much to say that I haven't said before (although probably no one remembers), but I'd love some advice if anyone has any...

Basically: I hung out on IRC and a girl there somewhat jokingly said she loved me. She teased me a bit and seeing my distress she...

Yesterday was my first day of university. I had to spend the last of my money on two books that I need to read over the next few days. I don't even know if one of them is the right one.

And I still need to buy a psychology textbook, which I have no money for.

And I have no fucking clue how to write essays.

So why did she give me her number?

I wish there was some sort of computer program that could decide for me whether to get a tablet or a smartphone. If a tablet, which one? Or which smartphone? Man, the Samsung Galaxy SIII looks so damn nice. My parents might pay for it. But is there something better? I just don't know. Fuck decisions. I wish I was a robot.

As I never went to school the best I can do to start with is a Bachelor of Arts, but hopefully I'll be able to transfer into something more... well... real.

I also did fairly well in the comprehension test I had to sit (percentile rank of 99), but since it's only taken by school dropouts that's not saying that much about my intellect.

Still. I'm in. Massive relief; I wasn't confident at all. Now I need to start looking for somewhere nearer to the university to live!...

I mean, homosexuality is a bit weird. Why are some people attracted to people of the same sex? Yeah. It's weird.

BUT what's even weirder is when you're attracted to people who are attracted to people of the same sex.

Basically, why are lesbians so hot?