Descent

Sorry OANST, I didn't know you have a condition.

That's okay. I already knew you did.

I haven't left my flat in weeks, and haven't been to uni in months. I don't answer the phone or check my email, and the rare times the outside breaches my defenses I have panic attacks. My family is worried sick and my girlfriend is about to break. I have spent that time basically hiding from some amorphous spectre of uncertainty and responsibility. I have no goals, no aspirations and no future. I am very ready to check out.

So yes, the curse is real.

The good news is that yesterday I resolved to give life another shot, and that is currently what I'm doing.

hang in there, MM. you too, STM. fuck the curse, it can be broken.

Saw your original post, thought I commented...apparently not.
Anyway, hope you're feeling a bit (or even, a lot) better and that venting helped (I know myself it's quite cathartic sometimes to write down your feelings and articulate them).

And MM, hope you find yourself in a better state soon, too!