Threesome

Also, I certainly don't recommend losing your virginity in a threesome. Your first time is...well...going to be over quickly. I don't recommend adding another person to be embarrassed in front of.

Or it will go on for a long time because the rubber is making you drop a semi and you'll feign cumming because you feel awkward and then a few goes later you'll realise how fucking obvious it is to a girl if you fake cumming because I mean they obviously feel that shit and then you'll feel quite awkward about that.

That's always a possibility, too!

As little pressure as possible is my recommendation for a first time. And alcohol.

I chose to believe that having another guy to step in post-finale would take some of the pressure off of me to perform.

Then again, I thought I was going to have sex. I'd choose to believe many things.

This was pretty much the plan.

But hey, I'm totally over it now. Having a cute girl text me a couple of times a day just because she genuinely wants to know how I'm getting on... feels pretty good. But hey, early days. Haven't met the damn woman yet.

Still, I always maintained that if someone genuinely felt I was worth making an effort for, I'd do right by them. Well, for now that's true, and I'm a man of my word. I'm working late every night, I'm seeing a shrink every Monday, I walked six miles in the rain for kicks, and I'm setting up the next three years of my life (Fine Art degree at Bristol University) on the sides. Most of these things are not fun. They are simply things I want done, and, for now, I have the will to do them. It's... empowering.

If I do end up getting the girl, there will be blogs. Oh my, there will be blogs. I'd love to see what happens when the persistent fear of a decade gets pushed off of your shoulders.

Who knows, I might end up being a worthwhile human being. Won't that be nice.

And less emo hopefully. ;)

Dude.

Fine Artist.

Just be grateful I'm not waltzing around with a beret and a shitty mustache.

What do you look like + Photoshop.

Let's do this.

Hi, I'm bi too, and also probably trans!

'probably'?

I told myself for years that it was creepy and weird of me to want to be a girl, especially since I was attracted to girls. It's only been over the last few months that I've been looking back on those feelings, and the sexual fantasies I had where I was a girl, and the way I was more comfortable in a group of girls than of guys, and how often what I felt when seeing pretty girls wasn't desire but envy.

I guess I'm certain of how I feel, but I still present as male in real life; no one knows except my girlfriend and I'm not sure I was clear enough with the way I told her. People do think I seem quite feminine sometimes, but if anything they assume I'm gay. Online, I have started changing my name to something less masculine in places that I can, and someone I was talking to the other day told me to start correcting people that use masculine pronouns, although I haven't really done that yet as much as I desperately want people to use "she" when talking about me. So anyway. That's that.

Fair enough. I'm glad you're comfortable confiding in your girlfriend about it. Good luck!

i bet you love me for calling you "my man". sorry.

Haha, it's fine. I might be bothered if people said that on purpose, but otherwise I don't really care if people forget or whatever, and I certainly wouldn't expect anyone to know without me telling them.