Unemployment and Boredom.
I've been feeling so fucking down lately. A couple of reasons really, but mainly because of me not having a job for ages.
I've been unemployed since June of last year. Ever since then I've been looking everywhere for just something. Anything. Full time, part time, I don't care. Just within reason. I refuse to do any jobs involving me either holding up a sign, being dressed as a giant pizza or shouting "Big Issue!" All I want is money and something to mix up my day.
I'm back with the job center. I avoided it for ages cause all they do it stress me out. And yup. Yet again i'm writing down every job I've applied for in this diary and get benefits ever 2 weeks. Only trouble is. The job center do not help with the job searching and it only puts even more pressure looking for a job.
I seriously need some proper help. someone to guide me. The job center ain't helping. All they want is to see you looking for work. they don't care about your future or how you feel.
I still have no fucking clue what I want to do and where I'm going to be in 5 years time. I'm stuck in a rut. In my room playing games, recording videos, Day in. Day out. And to be honest. It's got to the point where it's fucking dull. Yes I still love gaming, of course I do. But doing anything for weeks and weeks over and over again gets boring.
It's also becoming a problem. I've gained a pain in my right wrist from using the mouse all the time. It's expected RSI, and it's seriously getting me even more down. I can't use the computer for long without it coming back. I need to take a break but it's pretty difficult to do so. All my job searching is done on the PC and I need to try and maintain my YouTube Channel.
What makes it worse is pretty much everyone I know is moving on in their lives. Stable jobs, studying at Uni, have girlfriends, hell. One my mates is recently engaged. I feel like I've just been left behind. Nothing special about me. Nothing noteworthy. Just a guy who plays games and has no fucking life to speak of.
So yeah. I need some advice guys. What do I do... Where do I go. I feel like I'm losing my mind.