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Swings and Roundabouts and See-saws and Slides and Climbing Frames

Posted 10-20-2014 at 01:16 PM by STM
The last month or so has been pretty busy for me. It's crazy to think I was ever in America now. I've only been back for three months but those stressful carefree days have been scrubbed from my memory.

I started work back in August as a trainee/ junior quantity surveyor and have spent the last few weeks down on a building site in South London managing a group of guys and getting a feel for what the industry is like as a whole.

It's pretty hectic and draining, the weekend absolutely flies by and at times it can be a little stressful, especially with the medication I'm on right now. At the same time though it's fairly rewarding, I'm earning my keep again and I feel independent as before now that I'm getting a pay cheque.

This also proves to me, that hard work (and a little nepotism) goes just as far as a degree which is good. Because I'm damn certain someone with a BA in creative arts does not automatically have a foot up and over me.

Last week I nearly broke up with my girlfriend two weeks before the day we started dating. That was pretty crazy and soul numbing but it did make me realise how much I love her and how much we love each other. We stayed together and are working towards being more supportive of each other to combat the long distance. It doesn't help she's almost constantly ill but it's good to feel like I'm not the only one making and effort any more.

The thing is, my mind is my worst enemy and if I let it, my imagination will destroy everything I've built up for myself. That's something I'm not going to let happen again. Too much at stake this time.

On a whole life is okay, just a bit crazy right now. 7/10, would reincarnate again.
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Crashpunk's Avatar
Ever since I was made redundant. Life has pretty much stopped for me. No job. No plans. I'm just at home making videos and gaming.
I don't have any real worries honesty, other than what the fuck I'm I going to do for a living. But that's always been the case for me. Just for now though, I'd like a temp job for Christmas or something. I need the cash. Plus I do feel useless staying at home all the time.

And I've also had experience working at a building site, and it really is hectic. It's quite bizarre at times too, what with being in unfinished buildings at all that.

It's also muddy. So fucking muddy.
Posted 10-20-2014 at 04:10 PM by Crashpunk

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Congrats on your job. I have as much respect for people who go to uni and earn their degree than those who secure themselves a job off the bat.

As someone who is also in a long distance relationship, I can somewhat relate to your troubles (although the distance is significantly different to yours). For us simple things such as saying "Good Morning" and "Good night" via text every single day is special and shows that we're both thinking of one another as the days go by. As well as regular messaging of course.

I can't imagine what it's like for you both being right across the world from each other. It takes so much strength to cope with these things!
Posted 10-21-2014 at 08:37 AM by Jordan

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Muddy indeed, Crash. And hella dusty too, the wind whipped up all the silica dust today and destroyed my eyes.

Thanks Jordan, I might actually be going to uni next year, paid for by the company I work for. Basically getting paid to get a degree so I can't complain about that.

I didn't realise you and your chap were long distance, I always assumed you lived together. My girlfriend and I talk everyday and have done for over a year. I'm surprised she's not sick of me yet but I'm still getting used to being apart in a way, I'm not sure if she is or not but she seems to be doing as well as I am which is good.

It's not easy that's true, but I'm hoping it'll be worth it in the end if it means we're happy.
Posted 10-21-2014 at 11:55 AM by STM

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Long distance is hard. For the first ten months of our relationship, Steph and I lived an hour apart, and that was almost enough to give me a nervous breakdown. I don't think I would ever bother with a relationship further than that. I just don't think it would be worth it to me. Not with how hectic and nerve racking my life already is. But if it works for you, and you guys are happy then that's good.
Posted 10-22-2014 at 08:23 AM by OANST

STM's Avatar
My dick is hard.


But yes, it's tough for us, but doable it seems.
Posted 10-23-2014 at 10:10 AM by STM

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hey brother, just a flying visit to show my support and tell you how fucking proud i am and how well i think you're doing for yourself, not that you need me to tell you that. you've got a good thing going, man. that may not sound sincere to you seeing as you have a closer and more direct perspective on your life (obviously), but as an outsider looking in i can see it clearly. you've come a long way, and it shows. just know this: it gets easier as time goes on. work and life in general, i mean. it gets surprisingly easier. that isn't because it's made easier for you, you just get better at navigating life throughout the years and gradually your life-skills ease and smooth off any bumps in the road. you'll still have ups and downs of course, but everything you've experienced and will experience, both good and bad, will make you stronger. i wish you the very best of luck and look after yourself. no more silicon melting your eyes out of their sockets. also, i hope the medication you mentioned isn't something too serious. i'm not being nosey, just concerned.

btw i'm not being ignorant when i spend a lot of time offline, i just don't have much time to spend on my 'puter at the mo, but i occasionally surf the forums on my phone whenever i have access to wifi to see how you're all getting on. it's a pain i can't use Steam chat on my phone. just so you know buddy.

anyway, TAKE CARE MON FRÈRE! XXX
Posted 10-30-2014 at 06:54 AM by MA

MeechMunchie's Avatar
Not even with this?

https://steamcommunity.com/chat/

Or this?

http://store.steampowered.com/mobile
Posted 10-30-2014 at 07:10 AM by MeechMunchie

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oh fucking hell i didn't even know you could use those on your phone. i've been missing out for, like, forever. i may be online a little more often then to bug you and STM and anyone else. thanks man!
Posted 10-30-2014 at 07:13 AM by MA

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hey brother, just a flying visit to show my support and tell you how fucking proud i am and how well i think you're doing for yourself, not that you need me to tell you that. you've got a good thing going, man. that may not sound sincere to you seeing as you have a closer and more direct perspective on your life (obviously), but as an outsider looking in i can see it clearly. you've come a long way, and it shows. just know this: it gets easier as time goes on. work and life in general, i mean. it gets surprisingly easier. that isn't because it's made easier for you, you just get better at navigating life throughout the years and gradually your life-skills ease and smooth off any bumps in the road. you'll still have ups and downs of course, but everything you've experienced and will experience, both good and bad, will make you stronger. i wish you the very best of luck and look after yourself. no more silicon melting your eyes out of their sockets. also, i hope the medication you mentioned isn't something too serious. i'm not being nosey, just concerned.

btw i'm not being ignorant when i spend a lot of time offline, i just don't have much time to spend on my 'puter at the mo, but i occasionally surf the forums on my phone whenever i have access to wifi to see how you're all getting on. it's a pain i can't use Steam chat on my phone. just so you know buddy.

anyway, TAKE CARE MON FRÈRE! XXX
I just came home from a loooong long day on site, commuting was hell, the dark makes me depressed. I sit down, open my laptop and see this and I'm not being dramatic but it made my day. Really cheered me up, thanks MA.

e: I also didn't know that was a thing, MM...but then I realised I can't put stuff like that on my work phone and thus your addition is worthless. (jk <3)
Posted 10-30-2014 at 11:46 AM by STM

 

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