This tight space rocks!

Posted 01-02-2014 at 06:39 PM by Phylum

Not really.

So I went to a friend's house yesterday. We hung out, and watched 4 James Bond films. It was pretty cool. I ended up staying for around 12 hours.

The problem is that this fried is the girl from my past few blogs. The one that I'm totally crazy about. The one that I just can't get out of my head.

So the day I got back from Europe I went to an 18th for a while, because I'd promised I'd be there. The entire time I stayed (which was only around an hour I think but I can't really remember because I was literally half a sleep) this girl and I just sat there talking to eachother, with a few people coming and going from the conversation. We're on holiday until early March now, so we're talking on Facebook lots. We've been having these big conversations spanning ages, and we'll just come and go as we need to. I've never talked to anyone this much. I've never been able to talk to anyone this comfortably before.

I'd been feeling better about it lately (I told her how I felt 2-3 months ago, she isn't interested), but today I'm feeling as bad as ever. I might even be feeling worse. I lay in bed for a lot of last night with my eyes open. I felt like I'd just lost the will to sleep while my heart just sank into my chest. I've had a similar feeling all morning. I just can't drown it out, no matter how hard I try. I can't focus on anything. When I slept I had nightmares, which is weird because I don't usually think I dream and I recall at least 2 dreams from last night.

I've never felt this close to someone as a friend. I've never spent that much time with a person over a day. There's noone else I could spent that long with and still be having fun. There's noone else's family that would invite me to stay for dinner. When my dad told me to get a taxi home and that he'd play me back, her dad insisted on driving me instead.

I feel like I can't keep doing this to myself, but I don't know what the right thing to do is. Do I tell her that it's too much? Do I take my chance at having a decent social life for the rest of summer away?

I wish I felt differently. Fuck my life.

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	And I keep coming here to post about it because the only person I really have to talk to about stuff is her. Hahaha.
	Posted 01-02-2014 at 06:42 PM by Phylum

	Give it time, man. Give it time.
	Posted 01-03-2014 at 05:09 AM by MeechMunchie

	i agree. time dulls. although it's harder when you can't really get away from the subject causing you distress. i don't envy your situation friend, so good luck.
	Posted 01-03-2014 at 09:33 AM by MA

I was gonna say just cut her out of the equation and move on. I've been in a similar situation (admittedly she wasn't my only friend but she was the one I talked to the most) and I cut ties eventually. When I did it was the best feeling but by that point things had soured between us drastically any way. Good luck, I'd say cut her off for a little while until you get over here but that's just my opinion.

Posted 01-03-2014 at 10:34 AM by STM

	E: My advice was crap, ignore it. Do what you think will make you happy, and yeah, give it time.
	Posted 01-03-2014 at 10:12 PM by DarkHoodness Updated 01-04-2014 at 11:27 PM by DarkHoodness

	Oh it's not weird or confusing at all. We know exactly where it's at, and we're dealing with it really well. It just hurts more than I can possibly put in to words.
	Posted 01-03-2014 at 10:48 PM by Phylum

	It will always hurt when you think about it, even years down the line. The only consolation I can give is you'll think about it less and less as time goes on.
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 03:05 AM by MeechMunchie

And I say the friendzone really isn't that bad

That is such a horrible word. 'Friendzone' implies that if you're nice to a girl then why shouldn't they want to date/fuck you. Because how dare they have their own standards/interests/kinks, that make you non applicable.

Also it won't hurt for years down the line because I'd hope in six months time you'll have enough going on on your plate that this is a pretty insignificant thing to invest time worrying about. I would expect you'll either move on when you find another pretty girl pay interest in you, or you'll forget this because you'll be at university having the best damn time of your life. New beginnings and all that.

Posted 01-04-2014 at 06:34 AM by STM

	E: I regret my use of the word "friendzone" without thinking about it. STM made some good points.
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 07:17 AM by DarkHoodness Updated 01-04-2014 at 11:30 PM by DarkHoodness

	DH is just a hard-as-fuck pimp is all.
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 07:22 AM by MA

	: Sorry, that was a stupid word I used - In the above context, I meant "being simply friends as opposed to being in a relationship" with it, without implying anything sinister. That wasn't a shot at you, to clarify, just the word.
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 08:28 AM by STM

	: That wasn't a shot at you, to clarify, just the word. Yeah I know, just what you said prompted me to think about it, and I agree with you. : DH is just a hard-as-fuck pimp is all. Pimpin'.
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 09:52 AM by DarkHoodness

	I still find the word friendzone interesting because I've heard women use it far more than men and yet everywhere I look online it's talked about like women never use it
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 12:32 PM by Slog Bait

	Friend-zone can suck me off
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 03:12 PM by Jordan

	The only time I ever hear people say friendzone is in rants about people saying the word friendzone.
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 06:00 PM by Phylum

	Freudzone.
	Posted 01-04-2014 at 06:40 PM by STM


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