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Knocking Gishy Off the Top

Posted 03-09-2013 at 05:18 AM by MeechMunchie
Updated 03-09-2013 at 05:20 AM by MeechMunchie

So, how is everyone?

Mentally speaking, I've been going downhill for some time now. Since I've now been found perched on a cliff edge in the middle of the night on two seperate occasions, my parents have encouraged me to see a doctor.

I'm less than ecstatic at the prospect of being pumped full of antidepressants, but since my friends are starting to become slightly scared of me (I look about as good as I feel, and trying to explain that I'm mentally unstable doesn't seem to be helping for some reason), I'll give them a go.

I don't actually feel guilty about upsetting people, but I know I probably will when/if I get better; so I'm trying to pretend I'm OK in what I hope is a vaguely convincing manner. If pills can help me do that, then so be it. I just hope I'll be able to come off of them when I want to.

tl;dr Apologies in retrospect if I've been boring recently; Apologies in advance if I start acting strangely in the future.

Things I have not done:
1) Dye my hair black
2) Talk down to everyone
3) Attempt to surround myself with shady mystique

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You're just a poor imitation of Gishygleb. Get some genuine problems, then get maudlin.

In all seriousness, I hope things aren't going too bad for you, and if antidepressants will give you some stability, then I'd say give them a go, however much you might not feel like taking them. Anything to stop you from perching on a cliff, metaphorically or otherwise.
Or maybe you could just see if a lobotomy would work.

Posted 03-09-2013 at 05:35 AM by OddjobAbe

	By "cliff edge", I mean that thing with rocks and air and not much between them, about 12 miles from home. People have an irritating tendency to assume this is "just exam stress". Even if this was about A-Levels, I think this is a little beyond the norm for that.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 06:10 AM by MeechMunchie Updated 03-09-2013 at 06:13 AM by MeechMunchie

	Go'damn take it easy mate, not much advice I can give that isn't going to be obvious or condescending, I hope you pull through though.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 06:28 AM by STM

	I hope things get better for you, and I know it's rich coming from me, but maybe seeing a doctor isn't the worst idea.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 07:51 AM by Nepsotic

	The only way to escape from the despair is to create a wound. Cut a finger, if you are terrified.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 07:56 AM by gishygleb

	: The only way to escape from the despair is to createa wound. Cut a finger, if you are terrified. Maybe you should cut your Ethernet cable.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 08:00 AM by Nepsotic Updated 03-09-2013 at 09:14 AM by Nepsotic

	Of course! Add bodily harm to my psychological issues! That's an obvious and efficient solution!
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 08:06 AM by MeechMunchie

	: The only way to escape from the despair is to create a wound. Cut a finger, if you are terrified. Fuck off, you submongoloid.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 08:09 AM by OddjobAbe

	I dyed my hair black a few times. Not because i was down or anything, I thought it would look nice. But yeah, I would see if a doctor if you are really down, no harm in it.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 08:13 AM by Crashpunk

	: Fuck off, you submongoloid. Don't bash Gishy, don't you know he's a fountain of knowledge and wisdom?
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 08:46 AM by STM

	Sorry Gish, I suppose my mind's superficiality means that I mistake profundity for vacuousness. And it's only out of respect of MM's blog that I've been able to restrain myself from making a "Gashygleb" joke.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 09:13 AM by OddjobAbe Updated 03-09-2013 at 09:16 AM by OddjobAbe

	Your incompetence and naivety shall devastate your essence.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 09:41 AM by gishygleb

	I can use big words too! Methionylglutaminylarginyltyrosylglutamyl...serine. there.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 09:49 AM by Crashpunk

	Pathetic.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 09:50 AM by gishygleb

	Tch!
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 09:51 AM by OddjobAbe

	Bah!
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 10:04 AM by STM

	Bah-dum-tch.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 10:23 AM by MeechMunchie

	: The only way to escape from the despair is to create a wound. Cut a finger, if you are terrified. Well now that you mention it I've lost all interest in the matter.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 12:08 PM by Manco

	If nothing else I'm relieved about the hair. Sometime soon I may be going on a medication that has been known to cause depression to the point of suicide. You'll get pumped full of antidepressants while I'm slowly descending into madness. That may or may not be funny.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 03:36 PM by Phylum

	I used to take acne medication. I'm not sure if it was the same one that you linked, Phlyum, but it did trigger a slow spiral into depression. Wanted to kill myself for a while. Didn't help that my girlfriend dumped me around that time, but the pills really negatively effected my personality even prior to that. I'd advise that if it's not a complete neccessity that you stay away from.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 04:05 PM by Mr. Bungle

Sometime soon I may be going on a medication that has been known to cause depression to the point of suicide. You'll get pumped full of antidepressants while I'm slowly descending into madness.

How about we swap; I'll take your acne and you can have my depression. I have a cheese-grater and an envelope you can use.

Oh, and speaking of girls, I seem to have accidentally terrified my girl-I-go-out-with-regularly-but-isn't-my-girlfriend while trying to explain a) that my personality might warp a little in the coming weeks and b) I'm very grateful to have her in my life at times like this.

We were going out this weekend. It now appears we are not. It's like I've gone from "close friend" to "stalker" in the space of a conversation.

Posted 03-09-2013 at 04:31 PM by MeechMunchie

Updated 10-14-2013 at 07:29 PM by MeechMunchie

	sorry to hear this mate. try to relax and do something pleasant. seeing a doctor is wise, my friend.
	Posted 03-09-2013 at 05:19 PM by MA

I'm contemplating telling my girl from last year that I really appreciate her friendship and that it's stupid that we're not really talking*, even though she completely led me on for a few months before just going back to the guy she started with.

The more I think about it the more it seems to be a terrible idea.

*We're not talking, but we're not exactly not-talking either because that would be being weird about it and neither of us want that. Instead we're having half-forced, definitely-not-awkward conversations at irregular intervals.

Posted 03-09-2013 at 05:27 PM by Phylum

I'd say go for it. It'll only get worse otherwise. If things aren't genuinely like they were before, you need to keep talking until they are.

As for being weird, you're both making it weird already. Giving each other space is a normal thing to do, shows respect, and wouldn't mean you suddenly hate each other. Talking is good. Talking when you don't want to is not.

When you've been told to take a hike by as many girls as I have, you learn how to tidy up your mess. Last time I had to flat-out ask the girl to say "No" because she was too timid to break out of the limbo she'd put us both in.

Posted 03-09-2013 at 06:04 PM by MeechMunchie

It's getting better, really. There have been a few uncomfortable moments, but that's no great shock when dealing with me. The times when we've ended up talking have been the times when I've least expected it, and the times when neither of us were really tying. That gives me confidence that everything will be back to normal in no time.

Hey, I hijacked your blog. Aren't you supposed to be the one that does that?

Posted 03-09-2013 at 06:58 PM by Phylum

We could BM to throw some science or poetry in here somewhere...for some reason that's what most of my blogs get derailed by.

e: @Phylum, I think it sort of depends on the person they give it to, the chances would be incredibly small otherwise the drug wouldn't get passed all the government red tape. I mean, my meds could potentially to give me explosive diarrhoea amongst other things, and while that could be funny for everyone bar me, I think I'm safe...touch wood. =)

Posted 03-10-2013 at 01:51 AM by STM

Updated 03-10-2013 at 01:53 AM by STM

	Yeah, but this is riskier than your standard prescription medication. In AUS/NZ you have to be a specially qualified dermatologist to even prescribe it, and even then most people avoid it when possible. Plus, the depression is one thing, but muscular pain and fatigue sounds pretty shit too. Most of the side effects may be rare, but I don't think it's worth the risk to get rid of my acne.
	Posted 03-10-2013 at 03:24 AM by Phylum

	: Hey, I hijacked your blog. Aren't you supposed to be the one that does that? Eh. It's fairly apparent this is the size of my support network anyway. Also, http://www.depressionquest.com/dqfinal.html
	Posted 03-10-2013 at 04:29 AM by MeechMunchie

	Phylum: Isn't there any other medication you can take? I know someone who went on that stuff. Sure, his skin looks great, but he's got to take anti-depressants for the rest of his life and has no sex drive whatsoever. I think I'd prefer to have bad skin.
	Posted 03-10-2013 at 05:30 AM by Nate

I've tried lots of things. I doubt there's much more they can do. I know that my GP and dermatologist are both really reluctant to prescribe it, but they've both said that it would be the next step from what I'm on.

I just realised that I'm on minocycline anyway, and I think I have to stay on that for a few more months so that I don't get resistant to it or something.I'll have a bit more time to see if it miraculously gets any better.

Posted 03-10-2013 at 02:54 PM by Phylum

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