Knocking Gishy Off the Top

dang

The anidepressants help a lot. If your mood has been changing a lot and unexpectedly, that'll mostly stop. They'll knock you the fuck out when you take them for the first few days though so I hope you like sleeping.

And that really sucks :c i hope you get better mister

My GP said that she'd like to try therapy for a while before going for tablets. This seems sensible, since it's less likely to screw me up if it fails (woo) but will be the slower route in an already slow process of recovery (boo).

The rest of the day was spent ricocheting between various members of school staff to try and set up an appointment with the councillor. I'll find out when it is later in the week, though whether the appointment will be be before school breaks up for Easter, I don't know.

If that is the case, I've been given the number for an independent therapy group. Apparently the guy at school is a bit shit, so I get the feeling I'll be using it anyway.

So that's my status update for anyone who's boring enough to actually be interested in my health. For everyone else, I've been encouraged to start the CTD course on https://www.moodgym.anu.edu.au, the "Influences on My Thoughts" results of which are probably supposed to be confidential but I will now post here for ze olte scheisse-unt-giegglen.



I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED

Feels good to be doing something, even if my net health improvement is precisely zero. Back to the quack next week to see if anything actually changes.

Next appointment walk in with a clear container holding your sperm. Set it down on the table, say "Here. Analyze this," and then sit down with your hands folded in your lap.

Works every time.

Have you ever thought about working out? Exercise is extremely good for your mental health, not too mention that your self-esteem will go through the roof once you see improvements. Then again, I don't know what's wrong but it's something to ponder about and the fact that it's fucking 6,000,000,568,256,347,999,021 times better than pumping yourself with drugs... something too mention anyways to your GP. It worked for me but only because I was down about being lonely, isolated and my body fucking sucked.

There's a difference between mental illness and having low self-esteem. I get plenty of exercise, and I don't hate my body.

He hates your body though.

I'd just like to reiterate that I am not for one second trying to compare my experiences to those suffered by other notable members here. My life isn't great, but it's far from terrible. This is exactly why I want help: I have no logical reason to feel as bad as I do, so something must be wrong with me.

I wasn't comparing self-esteem to a mental illness, I just said it would be an added benefit. Oh, and forgive me if I'm poking/pushing about the subject but I'm genuinely interested, what is your exercise regime.

And I don't hate his body, STM. I can still remember his nipple piercing.