i miss leto

I've been meandering through various old posts and threads to try and remember pretty much anything about this place or the words exchanged within. I've been unusually nostalgic lately, and so I remembered one of my first loves, Oddworld, and then I remembered OWF.

I'm.. kind of shocked at the emotional response that I'm having by flipping through the archives. A genuine sense of melancholy has started to fill my mind, and I'm getting a feeling not unlike that of finishing a book and having to say goodbye to the characters, settings, and plots that you've invested so much thought and time into. I feel old, yet I haven't earned that right thanks to age or anything close.

I kind of miss the way 4chan was, or seemed to me. A cathartic way to feel a sense of belonging in a way that some people don't get elsewhere. Back when it was a community, with amusing jokes and stupid memes and wanton foolishness. When it was just so goddamn dumb that you couldn't bother thinking about anything else because you were too busy enjoying yourself.

I realize that I had that feeling here, too, only stronger. I don't know what I'm saying, or why I'm saying it, but I feel like I have to. It's bothering me, even if only a little, with the only symptoms being a bit of a numb feeling and a captivating confusion as this dull, ugly green color assaults my vision with the odd taste of mixed up memories.