Colour

In lieu of recent discussion I've decided it's time I explained...

The Origin of my Avatar

It was a cold, dark night. I was standing on the familiar, harsh pavers of my backyard. The cold under my bare feet was striking and I couldn't help but shiver. I stepped out around my house onto my back lawn. I don't remember why I walked around there, I just know that I walked. It was there that I saw her.

She was simply standing, facing away from me and bathing in moonlight. Her long, brown hair sat somewhere between curly and straight and she wore a plain duck-egg-blue-ish dress.

"Hello?" I called out to her. Slowly she turned to face me.

She was beautiful. I can't even remember her face anymore. So many years have passed that she is just a blur in my mind, but I remember that she was beautiful and I remember the colour of her dress.

After that everything is a blur. I recall that we talked for a while and that she was perfect. Too perfect, even. She was exactly what I needed. I saw someone like me at a time when I felt alone and isolated. She made me feel good in a time when I felt bad.

The last thing I remember was as she was leaving. She turned to go, but I called after her.
"Wait! You still haven't told me your name."
"My name..." She smiled at me. "... is Nedrah"

Then I woke up.

I can still hear her voice saying those last few words. It's eerie, really. I still get goosebumps when I think about it. Her voice was so clean and it rang through my dream like a bell.

The two things still etched into my mind to this day are her name and the colour of her dress.

It was late when I wrote this, so it isn't quite as good as I wanted it to be. I've tried writing it a few times over the last few years and it is never quite right. I've decided to stop being picky and finally explain this damn thing.

There were more dreams, too. She was in a few of them, but we never talked. I was too busy running. For months I dreamed of being killed by a demon child. Every night was torturous and I dreaded sleep. It was also then that I really thought about death for the first time and realised how scary it is. this dream happened reasonably early on in that sequence, although I think I was already dieing regularly by then.

So, yeah. My avatar is dream-girl Nedrah's dress colour.