So I Spent The Last Week In A Mental Institution

This is very good to hear, OANST.

I hope you're happier and healthier now!

- Dynamithix

I'm very glad to hear that you've picked up. I hope that you continue this way.

I'm just fucking glad to hear you're okay. You were on my mind far more than you should have been this past week.

You certainly sound happier, anyway. Nothing like some good ol'-fashioned introspection.

YOU BIG JERK

Wow, that is intense. But good for you. Mind telling us what is was like if its not too private?

Hey hey OANST, nice to here from you, hopefully the worst of it has passed now.

wb

Didn't say you were Dr Karl did you?

It's good to hear from you.

EDIT: ha, he called me just now. Had my number on his phone from that Wednesday.

I felt like a right idiot. "Hello? Who's this? Matt? Hi. Who?" I'd been expecting a call from someone else at the time, which coupled with hearing an oddly familiar voice threw me, and that he half-expected me to be Mutual Friend didn't help. I just feel the need to justify my performance in the beginning of the call. Every single vocal conversation I've had with him has started out that way, unbelievable.

Anyway, that was good. Tell us more about Pandora, OANST.

Glad to have you back OANST. I hope it really helped and you're not just trying to kid yourself or us for that matter.

I'm sure that I will eventually regale you all with tales of my week in crazy land, but not just yet. Anyway, they put me on some meds that have really evened me out. I haven't cried in a week, and I even asked a girl out on a date yesterday. I've come to a place where I can let April go, and I need to stay there. I can't keep pining after my lost love forever because we all see where that got me. I can live with this now. I couldn't before.

I want to thank everyone for caring, but I especially would like to thank those who called me at that time. Also, I would like to thank T-Nex, who posted the only comment on that blog that seemed to understand what was happening to me. Was it a dick move? Yes. Was it selfish? Yes. But like she said, I was already dead inside. I got to a place where the only thought that could comfort me was the thought of no longer having to live. But I'm not there anymore. So, thanks again.

Really glad to hear this. Partially because you're important to us, and partially because the blog production rates have taken a nosedive since this began.

Kudos to you for getting through this. Further Kudos for having a relatively upbeat attitude about it.

We should play some N+ or something soon.

I am really glad things are starting to go well for you and I respect you for getting over it this soon, it makes me feel happy too.

Does this mean you'll be trolling noobs in the forums again or are you still planning on leaving? Anyways, I wish the best for you.

You seem to be almost back to normal, and I am so glad! Also it is good news you are moving on!

I'm not hear often, so I hadn't heard anything more on you and April for quite a while. If I'd known I would have been concerned for you, but, well, just accept that I'm glad to hear you're coping okay.

I am so happy to hear about this. You, along with Leto, are my two favourite forums members, so with Leto hardly ever posting anymore, coupled with this, things were getting really stale around here.

But I'm just glad you're okay.

I was really glad to receive that call from you today, even if I didn't sound like it on the phone (I'm terrible at conveying emotion over the phone).
I'm glad you pulled through, man. I knew you were smarter than that, we all did, and I'm glad that we could actually made a difference.

Oh my... This blog is a big relief. Like MM, you've been filling my thoughts too.

It's really weird. Caring for people you barely ever met, or even have enough in common with.

But I'm really happy that you're better. I hope your meds take you to a good place, but also that you'll take yourself beyond them and reach a place where you're comfortable in your own skin.

And congrats on getting a date =) Like I said. You have the capability to make many girls happy. I'm fully confident in that.

I don't know what else to say. I just hope that can only move in the right direction. And I'm sure we're all here for you if you ever need someone to talk to

So relieved to see this blog, and happy to see you at your usual humor. I was beginning to wonder just what the hell happened in this situation after about a week of no new info. Good that you are in a nice place now, I hope it stays that way.

Glad things are going peachier. Try not to rush too much with the dating though.

Words can't describe how relieved I feel right now.

I had jotted down your number in notepad.exe before the blog was closed, and was honestly going to call you, but shit happened and my phone is completely out of service now.

And then to make things worse, I had to restart my computer, forgot to save the number, and thus lost it.

Point is, I'm damn happy to hear you're feeling better.

*happyhug*

It's really good to hear that you're still with us and are doing better. And, tangentially, I'd like to tell the forums how impressed I was at how they pulled together in support of OANST.

Be sure to let us know how that date goes. Good luck, dude.

*phew* You gave us quite the scare. Glad to see you're all right.

Glad to hear you've gotten through such a rough time. I'm confident you'll be right from here on in.

lotsolove

Like most of the member here I'm very glad to hear thing are going better for you OANST!

You gave us quite a scare there.

A huge weight has just been taken off of my shoulders. Even though I don't really know you, and you know me even less, I feel happy for you.

Very good to know you're feeling better. I can't really stress how good it is in words.

It's been a strange month, that's for sure. Last night was one of the strangest yet, but I won't be going into that. Still doing well. To be honest, one thing that's probably making this a little easier, and will seem completely bizarre to most people is that I feel no guilt over my attempt. I don't want to do it again, but I don't feel guilty for having tried either. It was a long, confusing process getting to that point, and I had plenty of help along the way. It came about because my therapist kept insisting that I needed to be on antidepressants, and it gave me the idea that if I could steer a doctor towards giving me something that could kill me, then I could have that as a back up. I did some research, and while it's true that Zanax isn't often fatal in accidental overdoses, it usually is in purposeful ones. So I went to the doctor, and I said the right things. She prescribed me Zanax. From that point it was all just a waiting game. Waiting to see if I could deal with my new life. I discovered that I couldn't, and you know the rest from there. Anyway, doing good. Picking up Abbey soon. Fun will ensue.

Xanax is a crazy drug. It makes you almost feel like you lose all emotion in a way. Well not really lose emotion, but in high doses you don't have ONE worry in the world. This is partially how my friend died from a heroin overdose (from my one blog.)

I take an SNRI and clonazepam, but that's not near the intensity of Xanax.

I bet you and Abbey will have lots of fun together now!

Not to be nosey or due but does Abbey know?